Dieu nous a voulu
Le mot évangile veut dire bonne nouvelle et cette bonne nouvelle est adressée à tout homme et toute femme. L’être humain a été crée par un être suprême qu’on appelle Dieu. Dieu est le créateur de tout ce qui existe. Toute vie vient de lui et ça lui a plu de créer l’homme à son image. Dieu a crée l’homme parce qu’il l’aime et il a un projet pour l’homme. Le projet de Dieu pour l’homme ce que l’homme vive éternellement dans la joie en sa présence. Dieu est amour, il nous a donné la vie alors que nous n’existions pas. Lui, il existe pour toujours, il est éternel. Mais si il nous n’avait pas crée, nous n’existerions pas. Lui, il est la vie et il sait que la vie est quelque chose de bon, alors il nous a donné la grâce d’avoir la vie. En ceci, on voit comment Dieu nous aime. On sait alors qu’il a voulu chacun de nous qui existons sur cette terre. Parce Dieu n’aurait jamais crée ce qu’il n’aimait pas. Un caillou serait plus chanceux que nous si Dieu ne nous avait pas crée. Peut-être plusieurs personnes auraient dû exister mais n’ont pas existé. Nous existons parce que Dieu nous a voulu. Longtemps avant notre naissance, Dieu nous avait prédestiné. Dieu nous avait aimé et au temps approprie, il nous a mis au monde par notre conception, notre naissance et notre vie. N’est-il pas beau de savoir que nous avons du prix dans le regard de Dieu ? Il nous connaissait bien longtemps avant notre conception comme est rapporté par le prophète Jérémie qu’avant qu’il nous façonne, il nous connaissait déjà, avant que nous soyons nés, il nous avait déjà consacré à lui (Jérémie 1 :5).
Le but de notre vie humaine est d’accéder à la vie divine
Dieu nous a crée pas seulement pour cette vie humaine sur la terre. Il nous a crée pour une vie divine. Il a un projet pour nous, ce projet c’est d’avoir la vie de Dieu, d’être vêtu de la gloire de Dieu . N’est-il pas merveilleux. Dieu veut nous glorifier et veut que nous vivions pleinement de sa vie pour l’éternité. Pour accéder à la vie divine, il faut au préalable être voulu par Dieu, c’est-à-dire être né sur la terre, avoir une nature humaine, que nous tous présents avons. C’est pourquoi ceux qui n’existent pas n’aurons pas la vie de Dieu parce qu’il n’ont pas été crée. Nous comprenons alors que ce n’est pas par chance que nous sommes là et que ce n’est pas pour ce monde-ci que nous sommes là mais pour une vie bien plus grande que ce que nous connaissons aujourd’hui. Le but de notre vie humaine est d’accéder à la vie divine de Dieu.
Dieu veut qu’après notre vie sur la terre, nous passions à la vie éternelle avec lui pour toujours. C’était son projet lorsqu’il avait crée Adam et Eve. Il voulait qu’ils soient heureux sur la terre et qu’après leur vie humaine, ils passent à la vie supérieure, la vie divine. Tout son projet était bon et plein d’amour. Comment ! L’homme ne méritait pas la vie mais il a plu à Dieu de lui donner la vie et il a fait à ce qui n’existait pas d’exister . Il nous a fait à son image et à sa ressemblance. Quel honneur ! Et ce n’est pas tout, il a voulu que cet être qui n’existait pas ait, pas seulement la vie humaine, mais aussi la vie de Dieu ; que l’homme accède à la vie par excellence, la vie que Dieu à. Pas que l’homme soit Dieu mais que l’homme ait la vie de Dieu. C’est extraordinaire. Il est écrit dans le livre de la Genèse que Dieu met l’arbre de la vie dans le Jardin . C’est parce qu’il avait ce projet que l’homme vive pour toujours comme lui, Dieu.
Le péché nous prive de la vie divine
Mais alors vous connaissez l’histoire, Adam et Eve se sont laissés tromper par le serpent. Ils ont mangé le fruit de l’arbre de la connaissance du bien et du mal que Dieu les avait interdit. Dieu, étant un Dieu d’amour, est aussi un Dieu de justice. Parce qu’il est Dieu, il exige que ses commandements soient respectés. Il est grand, il est plein d’intégrité et de fidélité. Il ne traite pas avec des personnes qui ne le craignent pas et qui se moquent de lui. Il avait été très firme avec Adam et Eve. Il les a tout donné mais les a seulement interdit une chose. C’est ce qu’ils n’ont pas respecté. En désobéissant au commandement de Dieu, Dieu les a alors punis et les a chassée du jardin d’Eden. C’est à cause de cet acte de désobéissance que le péché, la souffrance et la mort sont entrés dans la vie de l’homme. L’homme a perdu ses privilèges et n’avait pas les moyens de se racheter auprès de Dieu. Depuis cet instant, les hommes ont été esclaves du péché . Beaucoup d’entre eux étaient fiers de faire le mal ; dans leur ignorance, ils étaient dupent à croire que le mal était bon. Mais le mal est une punition. Lorsqu’on fait le mal, on se punit soi-même parce que le salaire du péché est la mort (Romains 6 :23). On se trompe en croyant que c’est aux autres qu’on fait du mal. Ceux à qui on a fait du mal vont souffrir pour un moment alors nous, nous aurons notre récompense le jour du jugement.
Depuis Adam et Eve, tous les hommes ont été victimes du péché, de la souffrance et de la mort. Certains d’entre eux ont fait des efforts pour suivre Dieu en gardant ses commandements, mais leur justice, le bien qu’ils faisaient, n’arrivaient pas à leur sauver. Ils n’arrivaient pas à faire assez de bien pour sauver leurs vies. Leur péché dépassait toujours leurs bonnes actions. Chaque fois qu’ils pensaient du mal de leurs frères où de leurs sœurs, qu’ils avaient des pensées impures, qu’ils ne faisaient pas le bien qu’ils pouvaient faire, ils avaient péché. En plus de cela, la punition qui était tombée sur Adam et Eve était une malédiction parce qu’il se transmettait à tous les hommes. Et l’homme était condamné, il était tout le temps entrain de ruminer des pensées mauvaises. Il était condamné, ne savant pas quoi faire pour se sauver, car ses bonnes actions n’étaient pas assez bonnes pour le sauver. Il était alors privé de la gloire de Dieu, de la vie éternelle à cause de son péché .
Mais l’amour que Dieu avait pour l’homme n’a jamais cessé malgré le péché de l’homme. Il pouvait détruire l’homme et il aurait raison car l’homme l’avait désobéi. Dieu n’aimait pas le péché mais l’homme était continuellement dans le pêché. Il aurait dû éliminer l’homme au temps de Noé où il envoya un déluge sur la terre pour détruire toute être vivant (Genèse chapitres 6, 7, 8, 9). Mais en détruisant le monde par les eaux, il a sauvé Noé pour qu’à travers lui, la vie puisse continuer sur terre. L’homme était le chef-d’œuvre de Dieu et il avait un amour immense pour lui. Il avait la possibilité d’exterminer la race humaine mais il ne l’a pas fait parce qu’il avait une idée géniale, très merveilleuse mais aussi très radicale pour sauver l’homme. Rien ne l’était impossible et en sauvant le fils d’Abraham que lui-même avait demandé en sacrifice (Genèse 22), il annonçait déjà le plan qu’il avait mis en place pour nous sauver.
La rédemption de l’homme
Dieu a tant aimé le monde qu’il lui a envoyé son Fils afin que tout homme qui croit en lui ne périsse point mais qu’il ait la vie éternelle (Jean 3 :16). Dieu avait employé déjà les grands moyens pour créer l’homme car il l’a fait en son image. Le voila qui se dévoile encore en envoyant son Fils pour nous sauver. Comment peut-on expliquer cela ? C’est Dieu lui-même qui prend l’initiative de créer et de sauver l’homme. C’est tout simplement, l’amour. Dieu aime l’homme, c’est pourquoi il l’a crée. Dieu aime l’homme toujours même dans son péché, c’est pourquoi il a envoyé son Fils, Jésus Christ pour nous sauver. Voici la bonne nouvelle que nous sommes venus annoncer, l’amour fou de Dieu pour chacun d’entre nous qui entendons ce message aujourd’hui.
Nombreux d’entre nous connaissent le nom de Jésus Christ et même son histoire. Mais il ne suffit pas à l’homme créer à l’image de Dieu que de connaître le nom où l’histoire de Jésus Christ. Jésus Christ n’est pas venu sur la terre pour vivre comme nous. Il avait une mission, celle de sauver l’homme du péché, de la mort, et de l’enfer. Il n’est pas venu pour lui-même mais pour nous. Il est venu pour que nous croyions en lui et que nous soyons sauvés. Jésus Christ est le Fils de Dieu qui a prit la nature humaine afin d’accomplir en lui le salut de l’homme.
L’ancienne alliance
Regardons un peu le plan de Dieu pour notre salut. Ceci a commencé dans l’ancienne alliance que Dieu avait faite avec Abraham et qui s’est confirmée par Moise. Dieu ayant choisi Israël comme une nation particulière pour se faire révéler au monde, il les a donné des lois à suivre pour garder cette relation entre ce peuple et lui. Dieu ensuite a envoyé des prophètes pour proposée son salut à Israël. Il a donné des moyens à ce peuple de se sanctifier, par des sacrifices et des holocaustes pour enlever les pêchés et pour la purification. C’est par le sang des victimes, soit des moutons, des chèvres, des agneaux que le pécheur était pardonné de ses offenses. Et à chaque fois qu’on péchait, on devait être racheté par le sang versé des animaux, un rite que présidaient les prêtres Juifs de la tribu de Lévi . Mais ces sacrifices n’étaient pas agréables à Dieu parce qu’elles n’avaient pas la pleine puissance d’enlever entièrement toutes les fautes. (Hébreux 10 :4) Ça ne rendait pas ses pratiquants justes puisqu’ils étaient incapables de remplir entièrement toutes les exigences de la loi. Mais Dieu préparait seulement la place à la nouvelle alliance que venait établir son Fils, pas seulement pour les Juifs mais pour tous les hommes sur la terre..
L’histoire de Jésus
Jésus Christ est celui que Dieu a envoyé pour sauver le monde. Jésus a été conçu par l’Esprit Saint dans le ventre de la Vierge Marie. Cette femme, Marie, était vierge et était accordée en mariage à Joseph, l’un des descendants du roi David. Israël n’avait plus de roi en ce temps puisque c’était des Romains qui dirigeait leur pays. Marie a reçu le message de la conception de Jésus par un ange, Gabriel, et a accepté de porter cet enfant (Luc 1 :26 – 38). Joseph, quant a lui a accepté d’adopter cet enfant de sa femme et ainsi lui a fait entrer dans la généalogie de David, de Jacob, d’Abraham, de Noé, d’Adam et ainsi de l’homme.
C’est ainsi que Jésus est devenu homme et a prit notre nature humaine (Jean 1 :14). Il a vécu parmi nous ; il a connu nos souffrances et nos joies, il a été tenté par le mal mais n’a pas commis de péché. Il a été faible mais il ne s’est jamais découragé. Jésus savait qu’il était venu pour révéler l’amour de Dieu pour les hommes. Il fera cela en donnant sa vie pour nous. Mais avant, il nous a fait connaître le cœur de Dieu qu’il appelait Père et qu’il nous a appris à le prier ainsi. Il nous a fait connaître les mystères du royaume de Dieu. Il nous a enseigné et nous a montré ce que Dieu attendait de nous. Jésus passait son temps à faire le bien (Actes 10 :38). Il guérissait les malades, il chassait les démons, il délivrait les possédés. Jésus a ouvert les yeux des aveugles (Jean 9), il a purifié les lépreux, il a fait marcher les paralytiques. Il a ramené les morts à la vie (Mac 5 :39-43). Il a pardonné les pécheurs, Jésus nous a aimés.
Puisque c’était par le sang versé que Dieu pardonnait les péchés, Jésus s’est offert comme l’agneau de Dieu qui enlève le pêché du monde (Jean 1 :29). Il est le sacrifice parfait et agréable à Dieu (Psaume 40 :6-8). Il a donné sa vie une fois pour toute pour le salut du monde. Jésus est mort cloué sur une croix. Il a été trahi par l’un de ses disciples, Judas et fut arrêté, jugé et condamné à mort par le gouverneur Pilate à la demande des chefs des prêtres Juifs. Il fut flagellé, couronné d’épines et crucifié entre deux bandits. Il mourut et fut enseveli.
Quelque chose d’extraordinaire se passa le troisième jour après sa mort. Il fut ressuscité des morts détruisant ainsi la mort et celui qui détenait la puissance de la mort, le diable (Hébreux 2 : 14). Apres avoir laissé des consignes à ses disciples, Jésus monta au ciel et prit sa place à la droit du Père où il intercède pour nous. Il envoya la promesse du Père, l’Esprit Saint, qui descendit sur ses disciples le jour de la Pentecôte et qui les emmena à témoigner partout de l’évangile. L’annonce de l’évangile devient alors l’annonce de la personne de Jésus Christ ; de sa vie, sa mort et sa résurrection. Jésus aussi avait promis à ses disciples qu’il reviendra une seconde fois, pas comme il était venu avant, mais dans sa gloire pour juger le monde et sauver ceux qui auront cru en lui.
Le salut de Dieu
Voici en quelques mots la vie et la mission de Jésus Christ. Nous devons actualiser ce message dans nos vies. Comme on a vue plus tôt, la mission de Jésus Christ ne s’est pas faite pour elle-même, ni pour Jésus lui-même mais pour les hommes qui ont été séparés de Dieu à cause de leurs péchés. Pour que l’homme soit réconcilié à Dieu, il lui faut impérativement recevoir Jésus Christ dans sa vie comme son sauveur. Voici la condition que Dieu pose à l’homme avant de lui sauver. Jadis à Adam et Eve, il avait défendu de manger les fruits de l’arbre de la connaissance du bien et du mal. Adam et Eve ne l’ont pas fait confiance croyant que Dieu leur cachait quelque chose de bon et ils l’ont désobéi. Nous devons faire confiance à Dieu parce qu’il ne peut pas nous avoir crée pour nous interdire les bonnes choses, ni pour nous faire souffrir ou pour nous détruire. On comprends dans le premier chapitre du livre de la Genèse que l’univers entier a été crée pour l’homme. Et en plus, l’homme a été crée à l’image de Dieu. Par ceci, on peut être sûre que Dieu nous aime. Comme nous nous sommes séparés de lui par notre péché, il a fini par trouver un moyen pour nous sauver. Car rien n’est impossible à Dieu (Luc 1 :37). Et de quelle manière il l’a fait. En donnant son Fils Jésus Christ au monde. Par sa naissance, sa vie, sa passion, sa mort, son enterrement, sa résurrection et son ascension au ciel, Jésus Christ a remplit toutes les conditions que Dieu exigeait afin de sauver l’homme.
Jésus Christ le sauveur de l’homme
Résumons et comprenons mieux l’implication de ce que nous disons. L’homme est séparé de Dieu à cause de son péché. Par sa propre force et par tous les biens qu’il peut faire, il n’arrive toujours pas à plaire à Dieu. Il n’y avait aucun moyen pour que l’homme soit sauvé. La loi, les sacrifices et les bonnes actions de l’homme n’étaient pas suffisants parce que le prix du rachat de l’homme était très cher. Même la mort des prophètes où les interventions des anges n’ont pas réussi à résoudre ce problème. Alors Dieu est allé plus loin qu’on n’osait imaginer. Il a sacrifié son Fils unique Jésus Christ pour sauver l’homme. Il aimait son Fils, et il a vu que seul le sacrifice de son Fils pouvait lui plaire. Parce que l’amour qu’il a pour son Fils était plus fort que toute chose. Le sacrifice de Jésus Christ sur la croix du calvaire (Jean 19 :30) était la plus parfaite qui soit pour pardonner les péchés, pour détruire la mort, pour sauver les hommes de la punition éternelle. Le sacrifice de Jésus était agréable à Dieu parce qu’il remplissait toute la justice de Dieu.
C’est à cause du péché que la mort est entrée dans le monde. C’est le pêché qui est responsable de la mort et nous mourrons parce que nous avons pêché (Romains 5 :12). Tout homme qui a péché doit mourir. Mais par sa mort sur la croix, Jésus a prit en lui tous nos péchés et est mort à notre place. Il est mort pour que chaque personne qui croit en lui voie ses péchés pardonnés et sa mort anéantie. Dieu n’exigera plus la mort du pécheur car Jésus est mort pour lui. C’est en Adam que meurent tous les hommes mais c’est dans le Christ que tous les hommes vivront (1 Corinthiens 15 :22). Ce n’est pas nous qui l’avons voulu ainsi, mais Dieu qui veut que les hommes soient sauvés par Jésus, son Fils. C’est pourquoi il est impératif de recevoir Jésus Christ dans sa vie pour être sauvé parce que nos péchés ne peuvent pas être pardonnés si ce n’est par le sang de Jésus. Son sacrifice est complet et parfait parce qu’il peut sauver tous les hommes, hommes et femmes, petits et grands, riches et pauvres, Juifs et Païens, bons et mauvais de toute génération. Jésus a donné sa vie une fois pour toute pour sauver l’humanité du passé, présent et futur.
Recevoir Jésus Christ dans sa vie
Ce salut que Dieu nous donne à travers son Fils est gratuit et accessible à tous. Ce salut est disponible mais il y a une condition toute simple pour l’accueillir. C’est personnel et individuel. Nous obtenons ce salut par la foi en Dieu en recevant Jésus Christ dans notre vie comme Seigneur et Sauveur. Dieu se propose et ne force pas les gens. Il avait fait confiance à Adam et Eve et ils étaient libres de l’obéir ou pas. Aujourd’hui la condition qu’il met devant nous pour notre salut est que nous recevions Jésus Christ dans notre vie. On n’a pas a demandé pourquoi Dieu veut nous sauver seulement par son Fils. Il a décidé ainsi parce qu’il sait que c’est le seul moyen par lequel l’homme peut être sauvé. Nous devons alors lui faire confiance et recevoir Jésus Christ dans nos vies. Jésus Christ ne viendra pas nous sauver si nous ne l’invitions pas à entrer dans nos cœurs. Il dit qu’il se tient a la porte et frappe et si quelqu’un entende sa voix et lui ouvre sa porte, il entrera chez lui et mangera avec lui (Apocalypse 3:20). Mais il ne peut pas entrer sans qu’on l’ait ouvert la porte. Jésus se propose, il ne s’impose pas. C’est à nous alors de rejouer le rôle d’Adam. On se dit souvent que si on était Adam, on n’aurait pas mangé le fruit de l’arbre. Désormais, on a la possibilité de refaire cette histoire quand Dieu nous donne son salut par Jésus Christ. L’allons-nous lui faire confiance et recevoir Jésus Christ dans notre vie où l’allons nous le désobéi et rejeter Jésus Christ comme l’avait fait Adam et Eve ?
Etre né de nouveau
Recevoir Jésus Christ est la meilleure chose qui peut arriver à un homme. Plus que d’avoir l’argent, des voitures, une belle femme, un mari riche et beau, des enfants, d’aller en Europe ou en Amérique. Un jeune australien a chanté que l’amour de Dieu était mieux que la vie (Better than Life, Hope, Hillsong ). David l’avait déjà dit dans les Psaumes. Et c’est ce que vous diront les chrétiens nés de nouveau. Etre né de nouveaux ce n’est pas appartenir à une église particulière mais à recevoir d’une manière radicale Jésus Christ dans sa vie. Nous sommes nés de la chair et donc, nous ne pourrions pas accéder à la vie divine parce que nous avions péché. Mais ceux qui reçoivent Jésus Christ dans leurs vies, sont nés de nouveau. Ils sont donc nés de l’Esprit de Dieu. Lorsqu’on est né de nouveau, Jésus, qui est Fils de Dieu, qui à la vie de Dieu, nous donne la puissance de devenir fils et filles de Dieu comme lui, et nous pourrons alors avoir la vie éternelle (Jean 1:12,13 ; Jean 3 :3).
Les disciples de Jésus
Et lorsqu’on est né de nouveau, qu’on devient enfant de Dieu en acceptant Jésus dans notre vie, on devient alors des disciples du Christ. Jésus devient notre Maître et on se doit de l’obéir. Car Jésus est mort pour tous pour que ceux qui vivent ne vivent plus pour eux-mêmes mais pour lui qui est mort pour eux et est ressuscité (II Corinthiens 5:15). Avant de partir au ciel, Jésus a laissé un commandement à ses disciples, un seul commandement et le plus beau, c’est de nous aimés les un les autres comme il nous a aimé (Jean 13:34). : « Je vous donne un nouveau commandement, Aimez-vous les uns les autres comme je vous ai aimé.». L’amour pour le prochain est la marque des disciples du Seigneur. Lorsque tu reçois Jésus dans ta vie, tu es guidé par l’Esprit Saint qui te conseille et te montre comment marcher selon la volonté de Dieu. On ne peut pas recevoir Jésus Christ dans sa vie et demeurer le même. Il doit avoir une transformation dans notre vie. Puisqu’on est né de Dieu, on ne peut plus vivre selon la chair. On aura alors deux natures jusqu’à notre mort quand nous enlèverons ce corps de chair pour être vêtu du corps du Ressuscité. Nos avons à présent un corps charnel et un corps spirituel. Et les deux s’opposent. La chair est contre l’Esprit et l’Esprit est contre les œuvres de la chair. Ceux qui marchent selon les désirs de la chair n’hériteront pas le royaume de Dieu (Galates 5:17,21). Les enfants de Dieu sont nés de l’Esprit de Dieu et ils marchent selon l’Esprit. Ils adorent Dieu en esprit et en vérité. En vérité ça veut dire que pas seulement faire croire aux autres qu’on a reçu Jésus ou simplement aller à la messe, mais qu’on suive Jésus en portant notre croix, en gardant ses commandements dans la sincérité de notre cœur.
La raison de vivre
Le projet que Dieu avait pour l’homme demeure toujours. Dieu a réparée le mal que avaient fait Adam et Eve par l’obéissance de son Fils, Jésus Christ. Ce projet, comme nous avons vu déjà est que nous vivions pour toujours dans la vie de Dieu. On a vu que le but de notre vie humaine était d’acquérir la vie éternelle. C’est déjà une réponse à ceux qui désespèrent de leurs vies, qui cherchent la raison pour laquelle ils vivent. Ceux qui sont déprimés, qui n’arrivent pas a trouvé le bonheur sur la terre, ceux qui se suicident, ou qui trouvent que la vie n’a pas de sens. Aujourd’hui sachons que notre vie a un sens, on a une raison de vivre, notre vie sur la terre a un but, on a été crée sur la terre pour aller au ciel.
La gloire est notre héritage
Notre destin c’est la vie éternelle en Dieu. Notre destin c’est d’être vêtu de la gloire de Dieu. Nous ne sommes pas complets dans notre vie humaine. Le comble de l’être humain est d’avoir la vie divine. C’est cela notre bonheur, notre joie, notre satisfaction ; d’être comme lui car nous le verrons tel qu’il est, face-à-face (1 Jean 3 :2). Dieu est bon et il a un plan merveilleux pour nous car la gloire qui va être révélé en nous sera bien plus qu’on aurait imaginé. Car aucun œil n’a vu, ni oreille entendue, aucun cœur n’a songé ce que Dieu à préparé pour ceux qui l’aiment (I Corinthiens 2 :9). La gloire de Dieu est immense nous ne pouvons pas la sondée. On s’émerveille déjà sur la terre de son immense beauté et sa puissance dans les eaux, dans le soleil et la lune, en contemplant la beauté du ciel, dans une nuit étoilée, dans les forets, les déserts, les animaux, les plantes, dans les merveilles du monde. Mais la gloire de Dieu dépassera tous ce que nous aurons connu et c’est dans cette gloire que nous sommes appelés à y entrer. Nous avons été crée pour ça, pour être couvert de la gloire de Dieu.
Qu’est-ce qu’il faut faire ?
En sachant cela, que notre destin dans la vie sur terre est d’accéder au paradis, notre objectif alors doit être de tout faire pour que notre destin s’accomplisse. Il ne faudrait pas que les choses de la terre nous privent de notre but. Et le commandement que Dieu donne à tout homme sur la terre pour qu’il soit justifié et qu’il ait la possibilité d’être glorifié, c’est recevoir Jésus Christ dans sa vie par le baptême au nom du Père, Fils et Esprit Saint (Matthieu 28 :19). Recevoir Jésus Christ dans sa vie signifie qu’il devient notre Seigneur et Maître alors nous devons lui obéir. Et Jean résume alors ce que nous devons faire pour avoir la vie éternelle, c’est de croire en le nom de Jésus Christ, le Fils de Dieu et de nous aimés les uns les autres (1 Jean 3 :23). Jésus Christ lui-même dira que la vie éternelle consiste à connaître l’unique et vrai Dieu et Jésus Christ qu’il a envoyé (Jean 17 :3). Comment connaît-on le vrai Dieu ? On le connaît par Jésus Christ, son Fils car Dieu a dit à propos de Jésus « ceci est mon Fils, écoutez-le» (Luc 9 :35). L’écouter c’est le recevoir comme Sauveur et Seigneur. Voila ce qu’est appelé à faire celui qui veut que le projet de Dieu se réalise dans sa vie.
Les mensonges du diable
Il ne faut pas que nous nous laissions séduire par les vanités du monde qui ont été plantées par notre ennemie le diable pour nous détourner de notre destin (1 Pierre 5 :8). Les séductions de la vie, les désirs de la chair, les désirs des yeux, et l’orgueil de la vie (1 Jean 2 :16) sont des tentations qu’on s’en soumets la plupart des temps et qui nous éloignent de notre but. Le diable connaissait la gloire de Dieu lorsqu’il était encore Lucifer, l’ange de Dieu. Mais le mal était dans son cœur et il voulait prendre la place de Dieu. Il avait fait une erreur, comme nous d’ailleurs par Adam et Eve. Dieu est Dieu et personne ne peut prendre sa place puisque personne d’autre ne peut être Dieu que Dieu lui-même. Dieu peut donner sa gloire à d’autres, comme ses anges qui sont très puissants (Apocalypse 10 :1). Malgré leur gloire, ils ne peuvent pas rivalisé avec Dieu parce qu’ils ne sont pas Dieu. Dieu, dans son amour les a crée comme il nous à crée. Dieu les a donné la gloire mais leur gloire n’est rien comparable à la gloire de Dieu puisque Dieu lui-même est la gloire. Mais voila ce Lucifer qui convoitait la place de Dieu s’est vu projeter sur la terre avec ses anges (Apocalypse 12 :7-9). Ayant toujours son mauvais cœur et sachant qu’il ne peut plus se racheter et qu’il avait qu’un petit temps, il fait tout pour que nous les hommes, nous n’entrons pas dans la gloire de Dieu. Lui, le père du mensonge nous trompe en nous faisant croire que faire le mal est bon pour nous. Il fait tout ce qu’il peut pour nous bloquer le chemin vers le paradis.
Porter sa croix
Peu importe les séductions du diable, il y a toujours des hommes qui auront compris sa malice. Ces gens ont cherché a donné un sens à leurs vies et lorsqu’ils ont écouté l’évangile, ils ont compris alors pourquoi ils existaient. Ils ont donné leurs vies à Jésus et fortifié par l’Esprit Saint, ils ont réussir et réussissent toujours partout dans le monde à vivre comme leur Maître Jésus Christ souhaite. Certains ont abandonnés leurs familles, leurs amis, leurs bien-aimés, leurs pays, leur travail, leurs études, leur argent, leurs plaisirs, leurs conforts, leurs libertés et leurs joies parce qu’ils ont compris que la gloire éternelle qui attend celui qui donne sa vie à Jésus était incomparable a la jouissance ou les plaisirs temporelles de ce monde ci. Ils ont porté leurs croix, ils ont embrasé la souffrance, la pauvreté, et même la mort à cause de l’évangile Parce qu’un jour nous allons mourir et pour un chrétien, la mort devient une délivrance puisqu’il cessera le travaille qu’il faisait pour le royaume et lui-même entrera dans ce royaume. Il connaîtra alors sa récompense qui n’est même pas une récompense parce qu’il n’aura rien mérité de son salut. C’est un don gratuit de Dieu, la vie éternelle en Jésus Christ notre Seigneur (Romains 6 :23).
L’un est sauvé, l’autre ne l’est pas
Considérez deux hommes qui vivent sur la terre. L’un est chrétien né de nouveau, l’autre ne l’est pas. Le premier choisit de garder les commandements de Dieu mais l’autre fait le mal. Le premier fait tout pour s’abstenir du pêché, l’autre commet le pêché délibérément et est assez fier de ses actes. Le premier prend le temps de prier, d’aller évangéliser, l’autre passe son temps a boire dans les bars, a volé, a jouir de sa vie avec les femmes. Un jour les deux meurent et ils se retrouvent devant Dieu. Le premier est sauvé par sa foi en Christ et pour avoir gardé ses commandements. Il entre au paradis, son corps est transformé et il est couvert de gloire. L’autre avait rejeté le Christ et il faisait le mal. Alors il n’y avait aucun moyen pour qu’il soit sauvé car en dehors de Jésus, il n’y ait pas de salut. Le mal qu’il avait commit se retourne contre lui et il va devoir passer l’éternité en enfer. Mais alors à quoi bon avaient servir toutes ses jouissances sur la terre ? Etait-ce pour finir dans le feu ? A quoi sert-il à un homme de gagner le monde entier si ce n’est que pour perdre son âme ? (Matthieu 16 :26, Mac 8 :36) Si nous aurons tout dans ce monde rien que pour perdre notre âme après, ça ne vaut pas la peine. Puisqu’on aurait raté la vraie vie qui commence justement après notre mort, mais qui se prépare dès ici-bas.
Notre place est au ciel
Mais ce qui est vrai c’est que Dieu nous aime et il ne veut pas que personne d’entre nous périsse. Il a une place pour chacun de nous dans son paradis. Tu as ta place là-bas. Cette place est réservée pour toi seul. Ce n’est pas la place de ton voisin mais ta place, et Jésus attend que tu viennes la possédée. Il a dit qu’il partait au ciel pour nous préparer une place et il reviendra nous prendre pour nous emmener avec lui pour que là où il est, nous soyons aussi (Jean 14 :2,3). Ta maison n’est pas ta place, Douala n’est pas ta place, le Cameroun n’est pas ta place, l’Afrique n’est pas ta place, la terre n’est pas ta place; ta place est au ciel où personne ne pourra te chasser comme on chasse les gens de leurs maisons et de leur terrain à Douala.
Le Ressuscité nous ressuscitera
L’évangile est la plus bonne nouvelle qui est prêchée depuis deux mille ans. Elle est au-dessus de tout parce que c’est par elle que Dieu sauve les hommes. La raison de notre existence ce n’est pas de manger, de boire, d’aller à l’école, de travailler, d’avoir des relations sexuelles, de se marier, d’avoir des enfants, de voyager, de devenir des stars. La raison de notre existence est d’obtenir la vie éternelle. Et cette vie éternelle est obtenue qu’en recevant Jésus Christ dans sa vie car lui seul est le chemin, la vérité et la vie (Jean 14 :6). En croyant en lui, lorsque nous serons morts, il nous ressuscitera alors à la vie. Lui seul a cette puissance de ramener les morts à la vie car c’est lui seul qui est mort et est ressuscité. Il détient les clés de la mort et du séjour des morts. Il ouvre et personne ne peut fermer, il ferme et personne ne peut ouvrir (Apocalypse 3 :7). Il ouvrira la porte de la mort à ceux qui auront cru en lui. Alors ils entreront dans la vie et ils auront réalisé leur destin.
Invitation à recevoir Jésus Christ dans sa vie
Je vous invite alors en cet instant à invité le Christ dans vos vies pour ceux qui ne l’ont pas encore fait et pour nous qui voulons réaffirmé notre engagement dans le Seigneur. Ce que on va faire là n’est pas pour rire parce que ça serait la plus grave décision que vous aurez prit dans votre vie. Ceci changera votre vie et ça vous fera entrer dans le projet de Dieu pour vous. C’est une nouvelle naissance puisqu’on aura compris la raison pour laquelle nous vivons. Nous vivons pour recevoir Jésus dans notre vie et ainsi avoir la vie éternelle.
Nous prions :
Seigneur Jésus Christ, tu es le Fils de Dieu qui a été envoyé dans le monde pour sauver les hommes, moi y compris. Par l’évangile j’ai entendu et j’ai cru à la bonne nouvelle de ta naissance, ta vie, ta passion, ta mort, ton enterrement, ta résurrection, ton ascension, tout cela pour notre salut. Aujourd’hui je te reçois dans ma vie comme Seigneur, Sauveur et Maître. Je me repens de tous mes péchés. Je te prie de me pardonner et d’enlever tous mes péchés par ton sang versé sur la croix. Je veux te suivre Jésus, alors viens habité dans mon cœur. Donne-moi la force de faire ta volonté. Remplis moi de l’Esprit Saint qui est le don que tu donnes à tous ceux qui croient en ton nom. Que ton Esprit me soutienne pour que je témoigne de toi par mes actes et mes paroles. Protège et dirige moi et que tes anges campent autour d moi. Ai pitié de moi et réalise en moi ton projet pour lequel tu m’as crée. Traverse le passage de la mort avec moi et ressuscite moi à la vie éternelle avec toi dans le Royaume de ton Père, Dieu tout-puissant. Revêt-moi de ta gloire pour toujours et rend moi heureux pour l’éternité en ta présence. C’est à toi, Jésus que je prie en qui je crois et en qui je donne ma vie aujourd’hui. Jésus Christ, le Fils de Dieu, mon Sauveur et mon Seigneur. Merci Seigneur Jésus de m’avoir sauvé et donne moi ta grâce en abondance pour vivre cette nouvelle vie. Et surtout, soit toujours avec moi. Je mets ma confiance en ton nom. Merci mon Dieu de m’avoir donné Jésus Christ ton Fils, comme mon Sauveur. Amen.
Suivre Jésus
Maintenant que vous avez donné votre vie au Christ, il faut le suivre d’une manière radicale car il est devenu votre Maître. Il faut aller à la messe les dimanches, il faut recevoir les sacrements qu’il nous donne par son église, le baptême, la communion, la confirmation, la pénitence. Il faut aussi parler à Jésus chaque jour dans la prière et l’écouter dans sa parole et en lisant la Bible. Il faut obéir à ses aux commandements et aimer son prochain comme soi-même. Il faut témoigner de sa foi. Car Jésus a dit que quiconque aura honte de parler de lui ici-bas, lui à son tour aura honte de celui-là lorsqu’il reviendra dans sa gloire en compagnie de ses anges (Mac 8 :38). Voila plus au moins comment l’on s’engage à suivre Jésus.
La garantie du chrétien
Donner sa vie au Christ ne signifie pas qu’on n’aura plus de problème. La garantie qu’on a à suivre Jésus c’est la vie éternelle. On choisi de faire confiance à Dieu, même si on ne réussisse pas à ses examens, on ne trouve pas de travail, ou on n’a pas d’argent. On sait que Jésus est avec nous. Si on croit en Jésus Christ qui est le Oui de Dieu, alors toutes les promesses de Dieu seront oui pour nous (I Corinthiens 1 : 19-20). Les promesses que Dieu avait fait à l’homme qui ont été anéanties par notre désobéissance se réalisent en Jésus Christ. La vie est dure mais avec Jésus on vaincra même s’il faut passer par la souffrance, on n’aura pas peur parce que comme. Paul l’apôtre, nous aussi sommes persuadés que notre souffrance pour l’évangile qui est pour un temps seulement est légère et n’est rien face au poids de la gloire éternelle qui nous attend au ciel (II Corinthiens 4 :17).
Merci d’avoir écouter ces paroles, ce n’était pas très raffiné ni approfondie mais ce qui est essentiel ce que vous compreniez le message du salut. Tachez vous aussi de le transmettre à d’autres car le salut de Dieu est pour tous les hommes. Sachez que vous n’êtes pas seul dans votre parcours. Il y a des millions des chrétiens partout dans le monde qui prennent le même chemin que vous avez prit. Et on est nombreux même si dans ton quartier tu peux te retrouver seul. Ne désespères pas car tu as prit la bonne décision. Fais toujours confiance au Seigneur. Laisse-toi être dirigé par l’Esprit Saint et soit sincère et humble dans ton cœur en suivant le Seigneur. Tu es obligé de faire des efforts pour faire la volonté de Dieu et pour ne pas tomber dans le péché. Mais sache que ce n’est pas à cause de tes efforts que tu seras sauvé mais par la miséricorde infinie de Dieu. Garde ta foi jusqu’à la fin et tu seras sauvé.
N’ai pas peur de suivre Dieu. Dieu nous a donné la vie éternelle et cette vie se trouve en son Fils, Jésus Christ notre Seigneur (1 Jean 5 :11).
Je vous dis au revoir et « On est ensemble » sur ce chemin de la vie. Si on ne se voit plus encore sur cette terre, on se verra au ciel par la grâce de Dieu. Par Jésus Christ notre grand Sauveur et Seigneur. Amen.
Ecrit par Newmeli Margaret pour le compte de la Saviour of the World Ministries.
Inspiré du message de l’Abbé Hervé-Marie sur la « Nouvelle Naissance » dans sa Campagne d’Evangélisation.
Margaret Newmeli is a singer and the author of Another Dimension The Ultimate Amalgam, Worlds Collide, Tales of Captain Nootra, Perfection with Other Dimensions Into Light. Author of the hymnbooks Saviour of the World Abba Father, Jesus Christ is Lord. Catapulted to another world, Another Dimension. 4 teens board a ship to the world of their dreams. An accident brings them to Nootra, city of the superheroes. Worlds collide, heroes meet, champions are made amazon.com/author/margaretnewmeli
Friday, June 17, 2011
Sunday, June 12, 2011
THE LOVELIEST OF ALL
I took paper and pen
went to the seaside
I wanted to write about you
I knew it would be inspiring
to write about my lovely orange team
at an orange sunset on the beach
But I could not write any word
I had no time, no inspiration for that
There was One who captured me
I could not but contemplate
at the work of His hand
and magnify Him in his might
Yes He took pre-eminence over all
It is but his due
For He is glorious in everything
I forgot you for the moment
for at such wonderful a sight
I only had to pay homage
to the power of the One who made the sea
Every now and then the waters,
with great might proclaimed His praise
I was astonished at the power
of their worship
of the One who made them
They would not stop
Powerfully and mightily,
the waters praised God
And I meditated on these things
The sea was immense
I could not see the end thereof
But as far as I could see
There was the sky
it was at the end of the sea
Then I remembered the scriptures,
the words of His mouth
“Let there be a firmament
to separate the waters
beneath the firmament from the waters
above the firmament.” Gen 1:7
The waters and the sky were one
Space only separated one from the other
But on the horizon they joined together
I perceived by the seaside
that from generation to generation,
the waters praised their maker,
and that mightily
How great are the waters,
they constitute 70 percent
of the earth’s surface,
and they display so much energy,
how powerful they are
Their maker surely must be powerful
to have made something so enormous
He must be a giant
Mightier, bigger, greater
than the waters themselves
Why, because He created them
And this is only Earth
what about the whole universe?
And the One who made the waters
tells me in the secret of my heart
That he will rebuke mountains, vales,
and even these great waters for me
‘Though the mountains be removed
and be cast into the sea,
though the sea should roar
and the foundations be shaken to its roots
We will not fear
for the Lord of Hosts is with us
and God is our refuge.’ Psalm 46
Isn’t it a wonderful thing
that He is so strong and mighty?
In Unity with the waters,
the sky, the breeze the sand,
the trees, the birds
I lifted up my voice
and sang the might of his praise
But could I rival the waters,
they still praised him mightily,
and loudly they roared:
“Blessed be God,
who was, who is and who is to come,
the Almighty, from everlasting to everlasting. Amen.”
Sorry Oranje, do win your match.
I was struck by the loveliness of One
He who gives you victory
Join me in praise
for He is your loveliness
and of all that is lovely
The Loveliest of all
To Oranje
Newmeli Margaret
Written in Kribi,
Brest, 13 May 2008
went to the seaside
I wanted to write about you
I knew it would be inspiring
to write about my lovely orange team
at an orange sunset on the beach
But I could not write any word
I had no time, no inspiration for that
There was One who captured me
I could not but contemplate
at the work of His hand
and magnify Him in his might
Yes He took pre-eminence over all
It is but his due
For He is glorious in everything
I forgot you for the moment
for at such wonderful a sight
I only had to pay homage
to the power of the One who made the sea
Every now and then the waters,
with great might proclaimed His praise
I was astonished at the power
of their worship
of the One who made them
They would not stop
Powerfully and mightily,
the waters praised God
And I meditated on these things
The sea was immense
I could not see the end thereof
But as far as I could see
There was the sky
it was at the end of the sea
Then I remembered the scriptures,
the words of His mouth
“Let there be a firmament
to separate the waters
beneath the firmament from the waters
above the firmament.” Gen 1:7
The waters and the sky were one
Space only separated one from the other
But on the horizon they joined together
I perceived by the seaside
that from generation to generation,
the waters praised their maker,
and that mightily
How great are the waters,
they constitute 70 percent
of the earth’s surface,
and they display so much energy,
how powerful they are
Their maker surely must be powerful
to have made something so enormous
He must be a giant
Mightier, bigger, greater
than the waters themselves
Why, because He created them
And this is only Earth
what about the whole universe?
And the One who made the waters
tells me in the secret of my heart
That he will rebuke mountains, vales,
and even these great waters for me
‘Though the mountains be removed
and be cast into the sea,
though the sea should roar
and the foundations be shaken to its roots
We will not fear
for the Lord of Hosts is with us
and God is our refuge.’ Psalm 46
Isn’t it a wonderful thing
that He is so strong and mighty?
In Unity with the waters,
the sky, the breeze the sand,
the trees, the birds
I lifted up my voice
and sang the might of his praise
But could I rival the waters,
they still praised him mightily,
and loudly they roared:
“Blessed be God,
who was, who is and who is to come,
the Almighty, from everlasting to everlasting. Amen.”
Sorry Oranje, do win your match.
I was struck by the loveliness of One
He who gives you victory
Join me in praise
for He is your loveliness
and of all that is lovely
The Loveliest of all
To Oranje
Newmeli Margaret
Written in Kribi,
Brest, 13 May 2008
THE DUTCH TEAM AND ME
THE DREAM TEAM
My favourite clubs were defeated in the football season 99/00. Dutch nationals played in most of the clubs I supported When I thought about it, I came to a conclusion. They were losing in order to win an even greater victory in June, the Euro, to be held on their soil. Those losses meant they would all come together in Oranje and seal a victory for that talented generation of football players.
I came to know the Dutch team, officially, at World Cup ’98. They struck me when I first saw them and found the beauty of their team. Their football style was delightful; I was amazed when I saw them play. I am convinced they formed the best team at the 1998 FIFA’s World Cup and the 2000 UEFA’s Cup though they didn’t receive any trophies. .
My Players
These are the players that formed the Dutch dream team. First, Edwin van der Sar, the famous Dutch goalkeeper. He was amazing at the goal with his impressive height. I could hardly see him smile when he was younger. He had a proud look with a heart of gold. He has been one of Europe’s best keepers. He was assisted by Ruud Hesp, Sander Westerfeld, and Ed de Goey….
Ronald and Frank de Boer are my best football players. Frank and Ronald are identical twins. I love them because they are always together, The Inseparable Brothers. I was unable to distinguish one from the other in the past. Later, I found some differences between them. Frank was defender while Ronald played forward. Ronald looked more emotional than Frank. I judged this when I compared their attitudes when they lost their penalty kicks at World Cup ‘98 and Euro ’00. Frank was not as dejected in 2000 as Ronald was in 1998.
Dennis Bergkamp was the emblematic figure of that generation. It was Bergkamp’s Generation. He was the cornerstone of the team because of his exceptional talents. One would have expected him to be captain but Bergkamp was full of humility. He was calm yet liberated a joyful rage whenever he scored a goal. Bergkamp knew how to score goals but was not its master. The master of goals in the orange team was the tireless Patrick Kluivert.
Patrick Kluivert was the leading goal scorer of the team. Kluivert was terrific when he played. He was always ‘in the zone.’ Yet sometimes, Kluivert was badly ‘out the zone.’ In such instances, there was no way to bring him back. Marc Overmars, the bicycle, was relentless. He was able to make a 100m race and Usian Bolt would see nothing He knew how to transport the ball from Frank and Numan’s defence to Patrick’s attack. And he also scored goals. Edgar Davids was very combative but it was difficult for him to score a goal. Clarence Seedorf was the great midfielder of the crew together with Philip Cocu, who sometimes got lost only to emerge decisive. Ruud van Nistelrooy was one of them though unfortunate to be selected in those times.
Since I am short of information about other Dutch players, I will only list their names: Boudewinj Zenden, Winston Bogarde, Michael Reiziger, Wim Jonk, Roy Makaay, Giovanni van Bronckhorst, Jaap Stam, Jimmy Floyd Hasselbaink, Aron Winter, Pierre van Hooijdonk and all the Dutch players that you know so well.
Coaches
In addition to these lovely players, you have coaches who have been very close to them. Some had played in Ajax and later became coaches of Dutch and European clubs. They knew the younger players since some were their trainers and others formed part of the old crew within the emerging generations. I see the Dutch team as a family of grandfathers, fathers, sons and grandsons.
I only know a few of them but let me begin with the celebrated Dutch player Mr Johan Cruyff and the legendary Marco van Basten. You also have Ronald Koermann, Dick Advocaat, Louis van Gaal and Gus Hiddink. There is also the inevitable Frank Rijkaard, and the mythic captain Ruud Gullit, first person to brandish a trophy for Oranje.
This is the Dutch team that I knew whose players have been excellent in their game. They played in Europe’s best teams and many can testify that they played good football. At the club level, they won countless titles with Ajax and PSV. Many were successful at the European Champions’ League. They were named among the best players and FIFA ranked them among the best teams in the world. But the sad thing is that Oranje has won only one title, and Bergkamp’s Generation has retired without winning any title. This ordeal is the subject of my story, The Dutch Team and Me.
LOVELY
My passion for football started at Euro 1996. I watched a match at the quarter finals where an orange team was eliminated. I was moved by the tears of a man who missed his penalty kick. I sympathized with them for I had once admired a Rastafarian who had a beautiful laughter and who used to wear an orange jersey.
After that match, I continued watching football though nothing made me remember the Dutch team. Imagine the passion of someone who comes to love football at 15! I was eager to know all football players. I noted down the names of every new player I came across. The name ‘de Boer’ was in my list though I never knew who he was. I didn’t have the chance of watching football often but there was a competition our national TV would show. I had the possibility of watching two Champions’ League‘s matches on Wednesdays. It was the only opportunity I had of seeing football players. I was always excited so that I would do the cleaning on that day.
Ronald & Frank
There was a certain match I watched one night. It was the quarter-finals of the Champions’ League between Atletico Madrid and AFC Ajax. As I was watching the match, I heard the commentator call someone ‘Frank de Boer.’ After I had written it down, I saw the same player and this time, the commentator called him ‘Ronald de Boer.’ I glanced on my paper and saw that it was Frank. I thought the commentator made a mistake. Soon after, I saw the person defending trying to score a goal. I said to myself that they were playing disorderly.
My surprise and excitement were overwhelming when I saw two identical people making their way to the field after break time. Football astonished me in those days. I was so amazed to see two people who were exactly the same.. Ronald and Frank de Boer became my best players from that day onwards.
Dennis & Patrick
I later read a magazine talking about the ’98 World Cup qualifying matches. There was a picture of an orange guy who liberated an exciting rage after scoring a goal. I mistook his name for Kluivert. I also saw the picture of a young Blackman. I thought his name was Bergkamp. When I realized my mistake, Bergkamp became Kluivert’s big brother to me because they formed a terrible attack for Oranje.
Unfortunately, I didn’t have the opportunity of seeing these players often. I could only see them once or twice a year. But by not seeing them, I grew to love them more and they became part of my life.
BERGKAMP’S GENERATION
World Cup 1998
I was happy during World Cup ‘98 because I could see my players. And how lovely they were! It was the first time I was watching such great football. It was a feast for the eyes to see the Dutch team play. They scored many goals and beat every team they met. I was really fascinated by Marc Overmars. He was perfect in his game. Bergkamp scored the terrific goal against Argentina and Holland made its way to the semi-finals.
Holland versus Brazil. I remember that night, how our house was crowded with neighbours who came to watch the match. My brothers and sisters were there and I was in a thrill. Ronaldo scored and Kluivert equalized. I don’t remember if there were more than two goals but I do remember the penalty shoot-out. Frank and Bergkamp succeeded, Cocu and Ronald lost and the Dutch team was eliminated from the World Cup. I was grieved, not only because Holland was beaten but because Ronald lost his penalty kick. I prayed for him and asked Frank to comfort him. It was even more pathetic to see Overmars’ tears when Holland lost the little final against Croatia.
After the World Cup, I supported clubs where I could find any Dutch player. I supported Barcelona most because it was a little Dutch team. Frank and Ronald had joined Kluivert, Cocu, Reiziger and Hesp there. Barcelona didn’t win any title that season. Neither did any of the clubs wherein the Dutch players were found. I can still remember what I said on the night Barcelona was eliminated from the Champions’ League 2000: “Aren’t they all falling now because a greater victory awaits them in June? And won’t it be greater to see all of them winning in Oranje?”
Euro 2000
Euro 2000 was hosted by Holland and Belgium. The Dutch team played at ‘their Euro’ and won. I supported them even more. I did not doubt them though there were moments of fear. I prayed for them every time and sought for the latest reports concerning them. I was with them daily and their joys and hopes were mine as well. They had a lovely coach whom I didn’t know before; thus it was my first encounter with Frank Rijkaard. I was impatient as I waited for that moment when Bergkamp’s Generation would be crowned as the best football team and their names forever sealed as Europe’s champions.
During the quarter-final, I made some comments which revealed my doubts. I said: “Why score six goals in one match and not keep some for the other matches?” When I saw Overmars very confident about the semi-final at the press conference, I feared the World Cup tragedy might happen again. Unfortunately, these words and fears came to pass.
The Match
I thought the match would be played on Thursday night. I had not prayed nor had I done the cleaning when I realized that the match was about to start. I made a quick prayer and went before the TV. The semi-final of Euro ‘00 between The Netherlands and Italy kicked-off. Holland played like they did in ‘98. They were so combative and the Italians would see none of the ball. Oranje was dominating but my fears would not allow me appreciate their amazing game.
Then it happened that a penalty was awarded to the Dutch team. Frank de Boer, the captain, specialist in free kicks and penalty shoots, shot and lost. When I saw that, I knew something was wrong with my players. I kept my outward calm but I was so scared within. I thought to give-up watching the match. But I remembered that their struggle was my struggle.
At break time, I retired to pray yet became more troubled when the match resumed. They were not able to make concrete any of the many chances they had. They were controlling the game but were unable to score a goal. And a second time, they were given a penalty and it was Kluivert who lost it this time The TV showed Frank Rijkaard and he seemed disturbed. Although he kept his outward calm, I knew he did not understand what was going on with his team. The stress was heightened as the match drew unto extra-time. I could not tell what was in the mind of the Dutch players; there was no way for them to put the ball into the nets.
What do you think I was still sitting there to see, the penalty shoot-out? Hadn’t they missed two penalties in the normal period? When the time was over, there was the penalty shoot-out. And again, Frank lost. Was it because Ronald wasn’t playing that day? Stam lost, Bosvelt followed the tune, and the Dutch team was eliminated from ‘its’ Euro.
The Nightmare
I could not believe what had happened. I had projected the joy of their victory but that was then impossible. I soon thought that it was not true. Holland was at the final. How could it be otherwise? All that I had prayed and hoped for? But the nightmare was there.
I could not stay in that night. I wanted to be where I could free myself. I left home and went to a small field at the roadside and poured out tears. I was crying out: “Lord, why do you do me this? O Frank, why Lord, the Dutch players are not the champions, when then?” People saw me and wondered. I then sat down and started thinking. I asked the Lord why I loved people who brought grief to my life. I thought of going to the clouds to be free from the pains. But when I remembered Frank and the Dutch players, I refused to be comforted. Where would my players go? Their pains were my pains and I had to support them in everything.
I set myself to imagine their pains, how long the night would be to them. I did not want them to feel the pains I was feeling. I shouted the names of Ronald, Frank and of the Netherlands as I ran back home. I spoke to no one that night. Only, these pains encompassed me. I went to the veranda and looked at the stars wondering how the pains could be assuaged. I prayed God to comfort them and then I would be comforted.
On Friday, Frank Rijkaard said he did not know what happened to his team. He said he was disappointed for his players and had gone to give them his support. I felt sorry for him for I had seen his worried face during the match and knew he was going through the same pains. I wept even more when I heard that Dennis Bergkamp was retiring from international football. That generation was Bergkamp’s Generation and if he was retiring, the rest would follow and they would never win a trophy together in orange.
I did not speak to my family for three and a half days. One of my sisters asked if those players knew me that I was moved to that point. She did not know anything about the Dutch team and me. Even though they didn’t know me, I loved them. As time went by, I felt better and by Monday, I began speaking with my family, convinced that the Lord had comforted the Dutch players though the scars of that night were still there.
Lovely
I happened to see some reports about the Dutch team during the Euro which made me very happy. I saw Davids being applauded by the others when he came to the pitch. It was beautiful to see Van der Sar bowing down to Kluivert who scored three goals at the quarter final. My best image was that of Ronald embracing Frank after scoring a goal. I was idealizing the love these brothers had for each other. And it was noble of Kluivert to refuse to be accorded one goal which would have made him top-scorer of the competition. It was a pity that they didn’t win when they were so lovely and so united. Aren’t they more than champions?
The Last Straw
In January 2002 I sat down to write another episode of the Dutch Team and Me and it was more than enough. I saw the way things were unfolding in the world and stopped asking questions.
In September 2001 I received sad news from the radio. I wanted to get the results of the qualifying of Korea/Japan 2002. I remained still when I heard the journalist say that Holland was already out of the race. Surprisingly, it did not come as a shock. I continued listening to the subsequent items until the news was over.
I went to the veranda and saw a group of stars which I had named after the Dutch players. I suddenly got an intense desire to change the life I was living. My youngest sister noticed that I was sad and she came to me and insistently told me not to cry. I could not answer any of her words. I went within myself pondering more about the Dutch team and their fate. My sister would not leave me alone. She came nearer and sang a song and I gave her a smile.
Then I tried to imagine the implication of this elimination for the Dutch players. I was thinking of writing down what I was feeling and what the players were feeling. I accused football of being responsible for the pains of my players. Was I sad for myself or because I knew the Dutch players were sad? I wondered if all was finished for that generation.
Oranje my Love, Oranje my Heartbreak
After Euro ‘00, I did not want to hope in the World Cup because I was afraid the same story might be repeated. But they had to play qualification matches for World Cup 2002 and I could not forsake them. Their struggles were also mine. I prayed that all should be present at the World Cup so that none should be absent in case of their victory. Even though Bergkamp had left, Ruud van Nistelrooy was his right substitute. I hastily projected the team at the World Cup forgetting that they had first to qualify. Finally, it was Bergkamp who was right. Maybe he foresaw this final blow and retired before it happened.
And what about Ruud van Nistelrooy? I was particularly sad for him for he had never taken part in a big competition. And 2002 was his year. He had been so bright and emerged the best striker of the season. He wanted to confirm that at the World Cup. And wouldn’t he have been the revelation of Korea/Japan 2002?
Many of the Dutch players were aged 29-31 and I doubted if all could be present for World Cup 2006. What I wanted was that all of them win a trophy in Oranje. I continued to support them though I knew no victory could be beautiful as it would have been in ‘98 and ‘00 with Dennis Bergkamp.
Football has been the passion of Ronald and Frank, of Patrick and Dennis, of Edgar and Cocu, of Edwin and Arthur, of Michael and Marc, of Clarence and Ruud. Football has also brought sorrows in their lives. Guus Hiddink was disappointed in ’98; Rijkaard had remorse in ’00. Can van Gaal still believe in the Dutch team?
I used to ask many questions about the ways of the world during those times. Was it possible that the best do not win? Yet, no one can take away what they have lived in Oranje. The orange team was the loveliest dream of my players though also, their nightmare. Yet they have won an undying trophy, their friendship, unity and loveliness. And you have won me, if at all I could mean anything to you.
The Dutch Team and Me
Don’t tell me that this is how football works and that people do not win all the time. Have you ever seen such lovely and talented players before? I wanted their names to be sealed as those who gave the Netherlands its first world trophy. I don’t know if van Basten’s generation was as talented as Bergkamp’s Generation though they won.
When I started writing this article, I thought the pains the Dutch players felt in 2000 would never be removed. And I was so grieved that they would carry it all their lives. Now I know the Dutch players did not allow that sad experience pull them down. Their victory was to be gathered together for a single destiny: Oranje. Lovely people as the Dutch players that you know! Look at them when they line up in orange for the anthem and see how lovely they are!
A Letter
I love you the Dutch team and have written The Dutch Team and Me to share my version of your career in Oranje with you. I have sought to meet you these last ten years. How many letters did I send, with drawings, making phone calls, to your various clubs? I wrote articles, poems and composed two songs for you Oranje and Always Oranje. I would like to meet you who have become part of my life. Let me meet you my lovely players and tell you face to face what I have lived because of you.
If the Dutch players have not won here, certainly there must be a place where they shall win. There is a greater victory to be won and that is greater than the World Cup.
CHAPTER TWO
Holland vs.Portugal, first half of the 8th finals, World Cup 2006.Holland concedes a goal through a terrible shoot from a Portuguese defender. Don’t panic! It’s not yet half time; they shall equalize and score the winning goal. Just look at them, youths gifted with talents! Van der Sar, van Bronkhorst and Cocu make a link with the former generation. Gaze at the tireless Robin van Persie, and Arjen Robben, Overmars’ double. Stare at Wesley Sneijder, Dirk Kuyt, Ryan Babbel, and Andre Ooijerl. There is Oranje, though with no de Boers, Kluivert, Bergkamp. Certainly it is Oranje for that is the same loveliness. At the bench, a wealth of substitutes! Isn’t their coach the legendary Marco van Basten?
Marco Van Basten, Coach
Holland has always been coached by fantastic technicians. After giving all they had, each retired leaving the post for someone likely to be more fortunate. For it was a matter of fortune rather than of talents in Oranje, for none could doubt its potentials.
At long last he came out of his shell. Many had wondered at his silence over the ordeal of the Dutch team. They didn’t qualify for World Cup 2002 and they were not impressive at Euro 2004. Seeing how things unfolded, he had to come out. He led his team-mates to victory in 1988. Good luck was with him. The time came for the legend to retire from isolation and repeat the marvels of the past.
Marco van Basten took over the Dutch team after Euro 2004. Taking the team at a transition point, he wanted to reform it by creating a new generation of players. The team he was bringing up would be at its peak at World Cup 2010. Marco was very confident and knew what he wanted to achieve with his players. And his race for World Cup 2006 was extraordinary. Oranje lost none of its matches and finished first in its group. Yes San Marco has returned. And when the legend returns, history surely repeats itself.
The New Generation
It surprised many that Van Basten did not retain active players of the former generation in his 23 squad for World Cup 2006. His rejuvenating campaign was extreme. And the World Cup started timidly for the Dutch team. They played S. Montenegro for their first match. Ruud, Edwin, Cocu were present and Robben was remarkable. Holland won the match with no little painstaking.
Margaret you were in a dilemma during the match they played against Cote d’Ivoire. It was a match between the team you love and the team of your continent. Your heart versus. your race, whom shall you choose. You were afraid and didn’t watch the match. You disappeared and came back to know the scores. You found out that Holland had won. Were you happy for your players or sad for your people?
The Dutch team qualified for the 8th finals and their match vs. Argentina was more of a friendly. The real test was at the 8th final vs. Portugal. Portugal was one of the teams I loved because of its former players Joao Pinto, Sa Pinto, Paolo Sousa, Fernando Couto, and Nuno Gomes. I thought I would be divided in my support but at the kick-off, there were no doubts about the team my heart preferred; it was always Oranje.
8th final World Cup 2006
Oranje was not in orange but in blue and white, their national colours. It was remarkably rejuvenated. Still, these young ones were talented. They were masters in tact and techs. They played in Europe’s top clubs and contributed to the successes of their clubs. Frank Rijkaard won the Champions’ League together with van Bronckhorst and van Bommel. Robben won the Premier League. Van Nistelrooy was top scorer in Manchester United and Clarence Seedorf was making a festival in AC Milan.
A catalogue of great players with amazing talents! If you open the orange book, you would only find gifted players. Yet, there was still this sad reality. They had only one trophy with Oranje. Don’t despair; for Marco van Basten has come. The manifold techniques that amazed Europe in 1988 are back. 2006 is your year. You are in Germany to win.
Sunday June 2006, second half of the match between Holland and Portugal, Portugal leading 1-0. They tried all to reverse the situation. Sneijder was splendid in the midfield, Van Persie, relentless in his shoots, Cocu struggled hard for ball possession, Kuyt recovered all lost balls, van Bronckhorst never gave up till expulsion, Ooijer tightened the defence, Van der Sar saved threatening balls, Van der Vaart came in to fortify the attack. Oranje struggled hard but the old story was told again that night. Holland was eliminated from the World Cup.
Did Marco van Basten put too much trust in these young players? Were these young men prepared to handle the World Cup? Are experience and maturity not decisive factors in football? Marco van Basten received so many criticisms, mostly because he didn’t allow Ruud van Nistelrooy to play the match.
Ruud van Nistelrooy
Ruud van Nistelrooy! Wasn’t he the best player in 2002, who would have been the revelation of Korea/Japan 2002 except that Holland did not qualify for the World Cup? Wasn’t he the unlucky one who did not take part in Euro 2000 because of injury? Wasn’t it the same one who was not selected for World Cup 1998? And wasn’t it the same Ruud van Nistelrooy who was not allowed to play the 8th finals of the World Cup 2006?
Ruud van Nistelrooy was agitated during the match waiting impatiently to enter the pitch. Ruud made some warm-up but soon realized he would not play since the three substitutions were already made. Ruud was not only Holland’s but also one of Europe’s best strikers at the moment. That was his first World Cup only and Holland was eliminated without Ruud playing the match.
I could not tell what was on van Basten’s mind though I trusted he did all for the good of the team. But doubts arose in me on that Sunday night, and I asked: “Van Basten, did you sincerely believe that these children were able to accomplish such an exploit of winning the World Cup, or did you go there only to participate? And why didn’t you line-up van Nistelrooy? What would van Nistelrooy feel henceforth about you, his model in football?”
Unity
I am very concerned with the spirit of unity in the Dutch team. Their friendship, to me, has compensated the fact that they never won the World Cup. I love the solidarity between and among coaches and players. You can hardly find only one Dutch player in a club. They love to be together. Rijkaard’s was assisted by a compatriot in Barcelona, Van der Sar joined Ruud in ManUnited, van Persie was Bergkamp’s younger brother in Arsenal. Louis van Gaal nearly turned Barcelona into a little Dutch team when he was there. The Dutch team is a family of many generations; it is a team of relationships.
Marco Van Basten made a choice for the team which no one could understand.. I became afraid when I thought Ruud would be angry at Van Basten. I don’t want any disagreement among them. Don’t nurse any grievance against each other Remain united and un-break my heart. I can quote this scripture for you– see how they love each other. Isn’t World Cup 2010 taking place in my continent? Won’t you win on my soil? But O what will I do, I am divided between my heart and my race, whom shall I choose?
Consolation for Bergkamp’s Generation?
Van der Sar, van Bronckhorst, Philip Cocu, survivors of the all-time talented Dutch team of Frank de Boer, Bergkamp’s Generation, have encountered another defeat. There are no consolations to take to their former team-mates. Was it ordained that that generation would not win any trophy? Hasn’t the nightmare been prolonged in them?
Didn’t you know that there was no justice in football, and even in the world? Isn’t there injustice in football else I see Bergkamp winning many international trophies. Why do you want to understand any logic behind the fact that the best do not win? Don’t try to install justice by your own strength. Haven’t governments and organisations failed to put an end to terrorism, famine, wars, racism, global warming leaving many in misery today? You’ll be disappointed and tempted to give up when your work for the cause of justice appears to be vain
Don’t set your heart on things of this world. Don’t you know that it is the Lord who establishes all our endeavours on earth? Rely on the Lord, who Himself is Justice, and your efforts will be recompensed. He will establish the work of your hands and you will never work in vain. He shall comfort you always as he has done for the Dutch players.
A worthier victory
You’re champions already, when you love each other and live in unity like Frank and Ronald? Weren’t Ronald and Frank separated from each other in Barcelona only to be reunited in Qatar? Weren’t Frank Rijkaard, van Basten and Ruud Guilit inseparable in their days? Wasn’t Bergkamp always with Kluivert? Isn’t van Basten the model of van Nistelrooy?
God has given you talents in football. When you win the World Cup one day, it won’t be a matter of pride. It will only signify that in the Netherlands, there have been great generations of football players. What else do we want the World Cup for?
From Johan Cruyff to Patrick Kluivert, from Ronald Koerman to Dennis Bergkamp, from Guus Hiddink to Edwin van der Sar, from Frank Rijkaard to Marc Overmars, from Ruud Gullit to Edgar Davids, from Marco van Basten to Ruud van Nistelrooy. It is the same beauty, the same loveliness: Always Oranje.
Isn’t this our victory, being a player of Oranje? Yes Oranje, there is a more excellent way.
To the Dutch Players
Margaret Newmeli
My favourite clubs were defeated in the football season 99/00. Dutch nationals played in most of the clubs I supported When I thought about it, I came to a conclusion. They were losing in order to win an even greater victory in June, the Euro, to be held on their soil. Those losses meant they would all come together in Oranje and seal a victory for that talented generation of football players.
I came to know the Dutch team, officially, at World Cup ’98. They struck me when I first saw them and found the beauty of their team. Their football style was delightful; I was amazed when I saw them play. I am convinced they formed the best team at the 1998 FIFA’s World Cup and the 2000 UEFA’s Cup though they didn’t receive any trophies. .
My Players
These are the players that formed the Dutch dream team. First, Edwin van der Sar, the famous Dutch goalkeeper. He was amazing at the goal with his impressive height. I could hardly see him smile when he was younger. He had a proud look with a heart of gold. He has been one of Europe’s best keepers. He was assisted by Ruud Hesp, Sander Westerfeld, and Ed de Goey….
Ronald and Frank de Boer are my best football players. Frank and Ronald are identical twins. I love them because they are always together, The Inseparable Brothers. I was unable to distinguish one from the other in the past. Later, I found some differences between them. Frank was defender while Ronald played forward. Ronald looked more emotional than Frank. I judged this when I compared their attitudes when they lost their penalty kicks at World Cup ‘98 and Euro ’00. Frank was not as dejected in 2000 as Ronald was in 1998.
Dennis Bergkamp was the emblematic figure of that generation. It was Bergkamp’s Generation. He was the cornerstone of the team because of his exceptional talents. One would have expected him to be captain but Bergkamp was full of humility. He was calm yet liberated a joyful rage whenever he scored a goal. Bergkamp knew how to score goals but was not its master. The master of goals in the orange team was the tireless Patrick Kluivert.
Patrick Kluivert was the leading goal scorer of the team. Kluivert was terrific when he played. He was always ‘in the zone.’ Yet sometimes, Kluivert was badly ‘out the zone.’ In such instances, there was no way to bring him back. Marc Overmars, the bicycle, was relentless. He was able to make a 100m race and Usian Bolt would see nothing He knew how to transport the ball from Frank and Numan’s defence to Patrick’s attack. And he also scored goals. Edgar Davids was very combative but it was difficult for him to score a goal. Clarence Seedorf was the great midfielder of the crew together with Philip Cocu, who sometimes got lost only to emerge decisive. Ruud van Nistelrooy was one of them though unfortunate to be selected in those times.
Since I am short of information about other Dutch players, I will only list their names: Boudewinj Zenden, Winston Bogarde, Michael Reiziger, Wim Jonk, Roy Makaay, Giovanni van Bronckhorst, Jaap Stam, Jimmy Floyd Hasselbaink, Aron Winter, Pierre van Hooijdonk and all the Dutch players that you know so well.
Coaches
In addition to these lovely players, you have coaches who have been very close to them. Some had played in Ajax and later became coaches of Dutch and European clubs. They knew the younger players since some were their trainers and others formed part of the old crew within the emerging generations. I see the Dutch team as a family of grandfathers, fathers, sons and grandsons.
I only know a few of them but let me begin with the celebrated Dutch player Mr Johan Cruyff and the legendary Marco van Basten. You also have Ronald Koermann, Dick Advocaat, Louis van Gaal and Gus Hiddink. There is also the inevitable Frank Rijkaard, and the mythic captain Ruud Gullit, first person to brandish a trophy for Oranje.
This is the Dutch team that I knew whose players have been excellent in their game. They played in Europe’s best teams and many can testify that they played good football. At the club level, they won countless titles with Ajax and PSV. Many were successful at the European Champions’ League. They were named among the best players and FIFA ranked them among the best teams in the world. But the sad thing is that Oranje has won only one title, and Bergkamp’s Generation has retired without winning any title. This ordeal is the subject of my story, The Dutch Team and Me.
LOVELY
My passion for football started at Euro 1996. I watched a match at the quarter finals where an orange team was eliminated. I was moved by the tears of a man who missed his penalty kick. I sympathized with them for I had once admired a Rastafarian who had a beautiful laughter and who used to wear an orange jersey.
After that match, I continued watching football though nothing made me remember the Dutch team. Imagine the passion of someone who comes to love football at 15! I was eager to know all football players. I noted down the names of every new player I came across. The name ‘de Boer’ was in my list though I never knew who he was. I didn’t have the chance of watching football often but there was a competition our national TV would show. I had the possibility of watching two Champions’ League‘s matches on Wednesdays. It was the only opportunity I had of seeing football players. I was always excited so that I would do the cleaning on that day.
Ronald & Frank
There was a certain match I watched one night. It was the quarter-finals of the Champions’ League between Atletico Madrid and AFC Ajax. As I was watching the match, I heard the commentator call someone ‘Frank de Boer.’ After I had written it down, I saw the same player and this time, the commentator called him ‘Ronald de Boer.’ I glanced on my paper and saw that it was Frank. I thought the commentator made a mistake. Soon after, I saw the person defending trying to score a goal. I said to myself that they were playing disorderly.
My surprise and excitement were overwhelming when I saw two identical people making their way to the field after break time. Football astonished me in those days. I was so amazed to see two people who were exactly the same.. Ronald and Frank de Boer became my best players from that day onwards.
Dennis & Patrick
I later read a magazine talking about the ’98 World Cup qualifying matches. There was a picture of an orange guy who liberated an exciting rage after scoring a goal. I mistook his name for Kluivert. I also saw the picture of a young Blackman. I thought his name was Bergkamp. When I realized my mistake, Bergkamp became Kluivert’s big brother to me because they formed a terrible attack for Oranje.
Unfortunately, I didn’t have the opportunity of seeing these players often. I could only see them once or twice a year. But by not seeing them, I grew to love them more and they became part of my life.
BERGKAMP’S GENERATION
World Cup 1998
I was happy during World Cup ‘98 because I could see my players. And how lovely they were! It was the first time I was watching such great football. It was a feast for the eyes to see the Dutch team play. They scored many goals and beat every team they met. I was really fascinated by Marc Overmars. He was perfect in his game. Bergkamp scored the terrific goal against Argentina and Holland made its way to the semi-finals.
Holland versus Brazil. I remember that night, how our house was crowded with neighbours who came to watch the match. My brothers and sisters were there and I was in a thrill. Ronaldo scored and Kluivert equalized. I don’t remember if there were more than two goals but I do remember the penalty shoot-out. Frank and Bergkamp succeeded, Cocu and Ronald lost and the Dutch team was eliminated from the World Cup. I was grieved, not only because Holland was beaten but because Ronald lost his penalty kick. I prayed for him and asked Frank to comfort him. It was even more pathetic to see Overmars’ tears when Holland lost the little final against Croatia.
After the World Cup, I supported clubs where I could find any Dutch player. I supported Barcelona most because it was a little Dutch team. Frank and Ronald had joined Kluivert, Cocu, Reiziger and Hesp there. Barcelona didn’t win any title that season. Neither did any of the clubs wherein the Dutch players were found. I can still remember what I said on the night Barcelona was eliminated from the Champions’ League 2000: “Aren’t they all falling now because a greater victory awaits them in June? And won’t it be greater to see all of them winning in Oranje?”
Euro 2000
Euro 2000 was hosted by Holland and Belgium. The Dutch team played at ‘their Euro’ and won. I supported them even more. I did not doubt them though there were moments of fear. I prayed for them every time and sought for the latest reports concerning them. I was with them daily and their joys and hopes were mine as well. They had a lovely coach whom I didn’t know before; thus it was my first encounter with Frank Rijkaard. I was impatient as I waited for that moment when Bergkamp’s Generation would be crowned as the best football team and their names forever sealed as Europe’s champions.
During the quarter-final, I made some comments which revealed my doubts. I said: “Why score six goals in one match and not keep some for the other matches?” When I saw Overmars very confident about the semi-final at the press conference, I feared the World Cup tragedy might happen again. Unfortunately, these words and fears came to pass.
The Match
I thought the match would be played on Thursday night. I had not prayed nor had I done the cleaning when I realized that the match was about to start. I made a quick prayer and went before the TV. The semi-final of Euro ‘00 between The Netherlands and Italy kicked-off. Holland played like they did in ‘98. They were so combative and the Italians would see none of the ball. Oranje was dominating but my fears would not allow me appreciate their amazing game.
Then it happened that a penalty was awarded to the Dutch team. Frank de Boer, the captain, specialist in free kicks and penalty shoots, shot and lost. When I saw that, I knew something was wrong with my players. I kept my outward calm but I was so scared within. I thought to give-up watching the match. But I remembered that their struggle was my struggle.
At break time, I retired to pray yet became more troubled when the match resumed. They were not able to make concrete any of the many chances they had. They were controlling the game but were unable to score a goal. And a second time, they were given a penalty and it was Kluivert who lost it this time The TV showed Frank Rijkaard and he seemed disturbed. Although he kept his outward calm, I knew he did not understand what was going on with his team. The stress was heightened as the match drew unto extra-time. I could not tell what was in the mind of the Dutch players; there was no way for them to put the ball into the nets.
What do you think I was still sitting there to see, the penalty shoot-out? Hadn’t they missed two penalties in the normal period? When the time was over, there was the penalty shoot-out. And again, Frank lost. Was it because Ronald wasn’t playing that day? Stam lost, Bosvelt followed the tune, and the Dutch team was eliminated from ‘its’ Euro.
The Nightmare
I could not believe what had happened. I had projected the joy of their victory but that was then impossible. I soon thought that it was not true. Holland was at the final. How could it be otherwise? All that I had prayed and hoped for? But the nightmare was there.
I could not stay in that night. I wanted to be where I could free myself. I left home and went to a small field at the roadside and poured out tears. I was crying out: “Lord, why do you do me this? O Frank, why Lord, the Dutch players are not the champions, when then?” People saw me and wondered. I then sat down and started thinking. I asked the Lord why I loved people who brought grief to my life. I thought of going to the clouds to be free from the pains. But when I remembered Frank and the Dutch players, I refused to be comforted. Where would my players go? Their pains were my pains and I had to support them in everything.
I set myself to imagine their pains, how long the night would be to them. I did not want them to feel the pains I was feeling. I shouted the names of Ronald, Frank and of the Netherlands as I ran back home. I spoke to no one that night. Only, these pains encompassed me. I went to the veranda and looked at the stars wondering how the pains could be assuaged. I prayed God to comfort them and then I would be comforted.
On Friday, Frank Rijkaard said he did not know what happened to his team. He said he was disappointed for his players and had gone to give them his support. I felt sorry for him for I had seen his worried face during the match and knew he was going through the same pains. I wept even more when I heard that Dennis Bergkamp was retiring from international football. That generation was Bergkamp’s Generation and if he was retiring, the rest would follow and they would never win a trophy together in orange.
I did not speak to my family for three and a half days. One of my sisters asked if those players knew me that I was moved to that point. She did not know anything about the Dutch team and me. Even though they didn’t know me, I loved them. As time went by, I felt better and by Monday, I began speaking with my family, convinced that the Lord had comforted the Dutch players though the scars of that night were still there.
Lovely
I happened to see some reports about the Dutch team during the Euro which made me very happy. I saw Davids being applauded by the others when he came to the pitch. It was beautiful to see Van der Sar bowing down to Kluivert who scored three goals at the quarter final. My best image was that of Ronald embracing Frank after scoring a goal. I was idealizing the love these brothers had for each other. And it was noble of Kluivert to refuse to be accorded one goal which would have made him top-scorer of the competition. It was a pity that they didn’t win when they were so lovely and so united. Aren’t they more than champions?
The Last Straw
In January 2002 I sat down to write another episode of the Dutch Team and Me and it was more than enough. I saw the way things were unfolding in the world and stopped asking questions.
In September 2001 I received sad news from the radio. I wanted to get the results of the qualifying of Korea/Japan 2002. I remained still when I heard the journalist say that Holland was already out of the race. Surprisingly, it did not come as a shock. I continued listening to the subsequent items until the news was over.
I went to the veranda and saw a group of stars which I had named after the Dutch players. I suddenly got an intense desire to change the life I was living. My youngest sister noticed that I was sad and she came to me and insistently told me not to cry. I could not answer any of her words. I went within myself pondering more about the Dutch team and their fate. My sister would not leave me alone. She came nearer and sang a song and I gave her a smile.
Then I tried to imagine the implication of this elimination for the Dutch players. I was thinking of writing down what I was feeling and what the players were feeling. I accused football of being responsible for the pains of my players. Was I sad for myself or because I knew the Dutch players were sad? I wondered if all was finished for that generation.
Oranje my Love, Oranje my Heartbreak
After Euro ‘00, I did not want to hope in the World Cup because I was afraid the same story might be repeated. But they had to play qualification matches for World Cup 2002 and I could not forsake them. Their struggles were also mine. I prayed that all should be present at the World Cup so that none should be absent in case of their victory. Even though Bergkamp had left, Ruud van Nistelrooy was his right substitute. I hastily projected the team at the World Cup forgetting that they had first to qualify. Finally, it was Bergkamp who was right. Maybe he foresaw this final blow and retired before it happened.
And what about Ruud van Nistelrooy? I was particularly sad for him for he had never taken part in a big competition. And 2002 was his year. He had been so bright and emerged the best striker of the season. He wanted to confirm that at the World Cup. And wouldn’t he have been the revelation of Korea/Japan 2002?
Many of the Dutch players were aged 29-31 and I doubted if all could be present for World Cup 2006. What I wanted was that all of them win a trophy in Oranje. I continued to support them though I knew no victory could be beautiful as it would have been in ‘98 and ‘00 with Dennis Bergkamp.
Football has been the passion of Ronald and Frank, of Patrick and Dennis, of Edgar and Cocu, of Edwin and Arthur, of Michael and Marc, of Clarence and Ruud. Football has also brought sorrows in their lives. Guus Hiddink was disappointed in ’98; Rijkaard had remorse in ’00. Can van Gaal still believe in the Dutch team?
I used to ask many questions about the ways of the world during those times. Was it possible that the best do not win? Yet, no one can take away what they have lived in Oranje. The orange team was the loveliest dream of my players though also, their nightmare. Yet they have won an undying trophy, their friendship, unity and loveliness. And you have won me, if at all I could mean anything to you.
The Dutch Team and Me
Don’t tell me that this is how football works and that people do not win all the time. Have you ever seen such lovely and talented players before? I wanted their names to be sealed as those who gave the Netherlands its first world trophy. I don’t know if van Basten’s generation was as talented as Bergkamp’s Generation though they won.
When I started writing this article, I thought the pains the Dutch players felt in 2000 would never be removed. And I was so grieved that they would carry it all their lives. Now I know the Dutch players did not allow that sad experience pull them down. Their victory was to be gathered together for a single destiny: Oranje. Lovely people as the Dutch players that you know! Look at them when they line up in orange for the anthem and see how lovely they are!
A Letter
I love you the Dutch team and have written The Dutch Team and Me to share my version of your career in Oranje with you. I have sought to meet you these last ten years. How many letters did I send, with drawings, making phone calls, to your various clubs? I wrote articles, poems and composed two songs for you Oranje and Always Oranje. I would like to meet you who have become part of my life. Let me meet you my lovely players and tell you face to face what I have lived because of you.
If the Dutch players have not won here, certainly there must be a place where they shall win. There is a greater victory to be won and that is greater than the World Cup.
CHAPTER TWO
Holland vs.Portugal, first half of the 8th finals, World Cup 2006.Holland concedes a goal through a terrible shoot from a Portuguese defender. Don’t panic! It’s not yet half time; they shall equalize and score the winning goal. Just look at them, youths gifted with talents! Van der Sar, van Bronkhorst and Cocu make a link with the former generation. Gaze at the tireless Robin van Persie, and Arjen Robben, Overmars’ double. Stare at Wesley Sneijder, Dirk Kuyt, Ryan Babbel, and Andre Ooijerl. There is Oranje, though with no de Boers, Kluivert, Bergkamp. Certainly it is Oranje for that is the same loveliness. At the bench, a wealth of substitutes! Isn’t their coach the legendary Marco van Basten?
Marco Van Basten, Coach
Holland has always been coached by fantastic technicians. After giving all they had, each retired leaving the post for someone likely to be more fortunate. For it was a matter of fortune rather than of talents in Oranje, for none could doubt its potentials.
At long last he came out of his shell. Many had wondered at his silence over the ordeal of the Dutch team. They didn’t qualify for World Cup 2002 and they were not impressive at Euro 2004. Seeing how things unfolded, he had to come out. He led his team-mates to victory in 1988. Good luck was with him. The time came for the legend to retire from isolation and repeat the marvels of the past.
Marco van Basten took over the Dutch team after Euro 2004. Taking the team at a transition point, he wanted to reform it by creating a new generation of players. The team he was bringing up would be at its peak at World Cup 2010. Marco was very confident and knew what he wanted to achieve with his players. And his race for World Cup 2006 was extraordinary. Oranje lost none of its matches and finished first in its group. Yes San Marco has returned. And when the legend returns, history surely repeats itself.
The New Generation
It surprised many that Van Basten did not retain active players of the former generation in his 23 squad for World Cup 2006. His rejuvenating campaign was extreme. And the World Cup started timidly for the Dutch team. They played S. Montenegro for their first match. Ruud, Edwin, Cocu were present and Robben was remarkable. Holland won the match with no little painstaking.
Margaret you were in a dilemma during the match they played against Cote d’Ivoire. It was a match between the team you love and the team of your continent. Your heart versus. your race, whom shall you choose. You were afraid and didn’t watch the match. You disappeared and came back to know the scores. You found out that Holland had won. Were you happy for your players or sad for your people?
The Dutch team qualified for the 8th finals and their match vs. Argentina was more of a friendly. The real test was at the 8th final vs. Portugal. Portugal was one of the teams I loved because of its former players Joao Pinto, Sa Pinto, Paolo Sousa, Fernando Couto, and Nuno Gomes. I thought I would be divided in my support but at the kick-off, there were no doubts about the team my heart preferred; it was always Oranje.
8th final World Cup 2006
Oranje was not in orange but in blue and white, their national colours. It was remarkably rejuvenated. Still, these young ones were talented. They were masters in tact and techs. They played in Europe’s top clubs and contributed to the successes of their clubs. Frank Rijkaard won the Champions’ League together with van Bronckhorst and van Bommel. Robben won the Premier League. Van Nistelrooy was top scorer in Manchester United and Clarence Seedorf was making a festival in AC Milan.
A catalogue of great players with amazing talents! If you open the orange book, you would only find gifted players. Yet, there was still this sad reality. They had only one trophy with Oranje. Don’t despair; for Marco van Basten has come. The manifold techniques that amazed Europe in 1988 are back. 2006 is your year. You are in Germany to win.
Sunday June 2006, second half of the match between Holland and Portugal, Portugal leading 1-0. They tried all to reverse the situation. Sneijder was splendid in the midfield, Van Persie, relentless in his shoots, Cocu struggled hard for ball possession, Kuyt recovered all lost balls, van Bronckhorst never gave up till expulsion, Ooijer tightened the defence, Van der Sar saved threatening balls, Van der Vaart came in to fortify the attack. Oranje struggled hard but the old story was told again that night. Holland was eliminated from the World Cup.
Did Marco van Basten put too much trust in these young players? Were these young men prepared to handle the World Cup? Are experience and maturity not decisive factors in football? Marco van Basten received so many criticisms, mostly because he didn’t allow Ruud van Nistelrooy to play the match.
Ruud van Nistelrooy
Ruud van Nistelrooy! Wasn’t he the best player in 2002, who would have been the revelation of Korea/Japan 2002 except that Holland did not qualify for the World Cup? Wasn’t he the unlucky one who did not take part in Euro 2000 because of injury? Wasn’t it the same one who was not selected for World Cup 1998? And wasn’t it the same Ruud van Nistelrooy who was not allowed to play the 8th finals of the World Cup 2006?
Ruud van Nistelrooy was agitated during the match waiting impatiently to enter the pitch. Ruud made some warm-up but soon realized he would not play since the three substitutions were already made. Ruud was not only Holland’s but also one of Europe’s best strikers at the moment. That was his first World Cup only and Holland was eliminated without Ruud playing the match.
I could not tell what was on van Basten’s mind though I trusted he did all for the good of the team. But doubts arose in me on that Sunday night, and I asked: “Van Basten, did you sincerely believe that these children were able to accomplish such an exploit of winning the World Cup, or did you go there only to participate? And why didn’t you line-up van Nistelrooy? What would van Nistelrooy feel henceforth about you, his model in football?”
Unity
I am very concerned with the spirit of unity in the Dutch team. Their friendship, to me, has compensated the fact that they never won the World Cup. I love the solidarity between and among coaches and players. You can hardly find only one Dutch player in a club. They love to be together. Rijkaard’s was assisted by a compatriot in Barcelona, Van der Sar joined Ruud in ManUnited, van Persie was Bergkamp’s younger brother in Arsenal. Louis van Gaal nearly turned Barcelona into a little Dutch team when he was there. The Dutch team is a family of many generations; it is a team of relationships.
Marco Van Basten made a choice for the team which no one could understand.. I became afraid when I thought Ruud would be angry at Van Basten. I don’t want any disagreement among them. Don’t nurse any grievance against each other Remain united and un-break my heart. I can quote this scripture for you– see how they love each other. Isn’t World Cup 2010 taking place in my continent? Won’t you win on my soil? But O what will I do, I am divided between my heart and my race, whom shall I choose?
Consolation for Bergkamp’s Generation?
Van der Sar, van Bronckhorst, Philip Cocu, survivors of the all-time talented Dutch team of Frank de Boer, Bergkamp’s Generation, have encountered another defeat. There are no consolations to take to their former team-mates. Was it ordained that that generation would not win any trophy? Hasn’t the nightmare been prolonged in them?
Didn’t you know that there was no justice in football, and even in the world? Isn’t there injustice in football else I see Bergkamp winning many international trophies. Why do you want to understand any logic behind the fact that the best do not win? Don’t try to install justice by your own strength. Haven’t governments and organisations failed to put an end to terrorism, famine, wars, racism, global warming leaving many in misery today? You’ll be disappointed and tempted to give up when your work for the cause of justice appears to be vain
Don’t set your heart on things of this world. Don’t you know that it is the Lord who establishes all our endeavours on earth? Rely on the Lord, who Himself is Justice, and your efforts will be recompensed. He will establish the work of your hands and you will never work in vain. He shall comfort you always as he has done for the Dutch players.
A worthier victory
You’re champions already, when you love each other and live in unity like Frank and Ronald? Weren’t Ronald and Frank separated from each other in Barcelona only to be reunited in Qatar? Weren’t Frank Rijkaard, van Basten and Ruud Guilit inseparable in their days? Wasn’t Bergkamp always with Kluivert? Isn’t van Basten the model of van Nistelrooy?
God has given you talents in football. When you win the World Cup one day, it won’t be a matter of pride. It will only signify that in the Netherlands, there have been great generations of football players. What else do we want the World Cup for?
From Johan Cruyff to Patrick Kluivert, from Ronald Koerman to Dennis Bergkamp, from Guus Hiddink to Edwin van der Sar, from Frank Rijkaard to Marc Overmars, from Ruud Gullit to Edgar Davids, from Marco van Basten to Ruud van Nistelrooy. It is the same beauty, the same loveliness: Always Oranje.
Isn’t this our victory, being a player of Oranje? Yes Oranje, there is a more excellent way.
To the Dutch Players
Margaret Newmeli
Friday, June 10, 2011
WHEN LIVING BECOMES AN EXPLOIT
They may have known days of relief, when the bitter memories disappear. They may have loved a beautiful song, enjoyed a delicious meal. They may have met someone special, lived a great love story. They may have entered into a deeper relationship with their maker. They surely may have known days of happiness again …
Though there are no ideals in the world, let your family be one for you. Keep on surviving for them. No matter what you might think, they are the ones who really love you. They are the only ones you’ve got in this world.
When the dark days come, the sadness and the anger overwhelm you. One thing remains on your mind: get rid of this body which produces such suffering.
Life is synonymous with happiness, joy, gladness. To be happy is not a privilege for human beings. We are actually ‘living’ when we are happy because it is the real nature of life. You can live a hundred years in this state without getting worried about the act of living. Some people are blessed with living these days. It is great grace to be always cheerful in your life.
Others are not thus. There are some people who find it hard to enjoy living. Some come into the world with a sad countenance. Some become gloomy as they grow up. Some isolate themselves, especially when they are highly sensitive to the functioning of the world around them. Some withdraw from society in rebellion to the ways of the world. Others lose their joy of living due to some sad events that come their way.
To these people, living has become a burden. The dark days are so frequent leading them to question the meaning of their existence. The bright days may be 99 but the one dark day is so dreary that you forget you had ever been happy in your life. It erases from your memory all the beauties you had ever cherished so that you are tempted to cause the irreparable damage.
I ask myself in the dark days: “How have I been able to live 26 years on earth when it is so hard to live?”
This article is for you. You who are often taken in these dark days: those days in which you feel of no importance to anybody; in which you feel guilty of the evil that happen to people; in which you think you are to blame for the negative events that occur in the world; in which you hate all people around you and feel they hate you too. For you whose dreams have been crushed, who loath your dreams that fell short of your expectations. For you whose hopes have disappointed, who have given up in your search for happiness.
I had my crisis in 1998 when I was 16. I felt to be the most evil person in the world. I numbered my sins and they were more than the sand on the shore. I was ashamed of them. I hated my family and believed they hated me too. I wanted to kill everybody and didn’t care anymore about the realisation of my dreams. Then I thought of putting an end to my miserable life.
There were about 12 of us in my family and the house was not always quiet. The building was overcrowded, the neighbourhood, full of noisy people. Yet I was a solitary being. I had no friends and rarely spoke to anyone except at school. Extremely quiet at home, I lived in my mind's eye. I imagined fantastic stories and was taken in a world of my own creation.
I was in Form Four and was certain to fail my exams. I thought my success at school was the only thing that made my family a little relieved of me. I considered that if I failed, my family would hate me completely. Apart from school, I could do nothing well. I went on nursing evil thoughts and these invaded my heart. I soon made a resolution and didn’t care about the consequences. Thus, all was set for my departure in 1998.
This is 2007. I thank God for saving my life. If I had left in 1998, I wouldn’t have seen the beauties of the year 2000. What a memorable time with my family! If I had gone earlier, I wouldn’t have known Don Moen’s and Paul Wilbur’s music, Rivers of Joy, Jerusalem Arise and Baruch Ha Ba which made me so joyful. I wouldn’t have seen the Olympic Games of 2000 and 2004 or the World Cups of ’98, ‘02 and ‘06. I wouldn’t have written songs to the Lord and known Him as He has been revealed to me these last years.
I am so grateful to God who did not allow me to take away my life in my ignorance, deceived by my thoughts. If I had left in 1998, I would have lost much and most important, would have caused tremendous suffering to my family.
I am writing for you who are passing through difficult moments right now; you who are in these dark days. You who are desperate about your situation. You who are angry with the people around you. You who feel nobody understands you. You who are undergoing a hard time and something mounts up in your mind as a solution.
Nobody Violence Nobody Suicide
Today, the dark days are even more frequent. I sometimes question God “Where is the abundant life you have come to give? All I see around is my misery. Yes, I am in Europe. I am an African in a European university. What a prestige! I have a room all for myself. I have all things I need. Everything is great materially. Thank you Lord.
“But now, say not that I am ungrateful but permit me to tell what I feel inside. I am terribly, deeply, profoundly SAD. In Cameroon I was sad and told you to bring me here for me to be happy. I promised I would do many things for you when I get here. Forgive me; I feel I can't because I hate this place. I hated Douala and today, I hate this city even more. I don’t care about good food, watching films, meeting the Dutch players, de Boer, van Nistelrooy… whom I have sought for 10 years. I don’t want to return to Douala, I don’t want to live in this place, I don’t want to go to school, I don’t care about anything. I hate this life. I don’t want to live. I don’t want to make any efforts. Set me free.”
One evening, I stood before the cross on a churchyard and wept for the pain. I felt that I was nothing, that I had nothing, that I knew nothing. All I could utter were the words of this song; I believe in the Lord, I believe in Jesus. I doubted the sincerity of my words but I trusted in my confession. I felt these nine words were all I could claim as mine in this world. This was all I had though with no faith, no works, no love.
And you will cry, cry and cry again till you are worn out. You will cry until your strength fails. You will cry so that you won’t sleep at night. You will cry all night so that you won’t wake up in the morning. You will cry so that you won’t get out of bed, so that you won’t eat.
Had I ever known living to be so difficult?
I can’t bear it. The sadness is piercing; it penetrates right into my heart. I am so sad. I can find no way out. God what is this? The solution is to get rid of this body so that the sadness may vanish. But my family, my family loves me. Do unto others what you want them to do unto you. I will not forgive if any commits such act. How could I do this to them? But why do they love me?
Look at me, see the evil in me. How can they love me who want to repay their good with evil? They did everything for me to further my studies in Europe so that I may succeed and ‘save’ them from poverty back at home. Now I don’t want to do anything in this place and I am scared of facing them. I don’t want to see their disappointment. Why do they place their hopes in me? I can't help them. I am nothing, I don’t know anything. Let them forget me and let me go to my place.
In 2003, I recounted my crisis of 1998 to one of my sisters and she was alarmed and utterd: "How could you ever think that we didn't love you?” Yet I had spent most of my childhood and teenage believing that they hated me; to the extent of considering something beyond repair.
I wrote this article after seeing a report on American soldiers who committed suicide after returning from the war in Iraq. One was 23, another was particularly handsome. I was still in my dark days yet I was grieved to see young people taking away their lives. I felt sorry for them though the day wasn’t bright for me. I had understood that the dark days, though may last for a night, for a day, a week, a month, a year, for years …, yet shall pass and the bright days shall come. As sure as the day comes after the night, so will the bright days come after the dark ones.
You who have been crushed by life, who don’t find your place anywhere in society, who see yourself on the sidelines, who feel that there is nothing again for you here on earth. You who think that all is finished for you, you who are lonely and feel nobody loves you, who have lost hope, who are desperate about your life; who are on the brink of suicide. You who are stranded in life with an impression of being caught in a trap; you didn’t ask to be here yet you are forced to bear with this hard-knock life.
Living is an exploit and we are all heroes.
I had a nightmare. I was in a church before the Blessed Sacrament. As I prayed, a horror fell on me. I heard an overwhelming voice rebuking me: “You say that you want to leave. Come now.” Fear seized me. I knew the voice had come to take me away. That was what I had asked for before I slept that night. I was afraid and started to cry saying: “No, I don’t want to go.” Then I woke up terribly frightened. I became scared of death. I rose up and prayed that I didn’t want to die anymore.
No matter how hard live has been afterwards, I had never wanted to die
Everybody’s suffering is unique in the world. Nobody can know what you are passing through. But as a companion, now passing through hard times, one who once had given credit to suicide, this message is for us. There is still hope, there is still a dream for us, we are called to do something great. We are called to be heroes.
What is your exploit?
To cry, to cry and yet to sleep again, though at 4am. What is your exploit? To sleep, to sleep and yet to wake up again though at 3pm. To fast, to fast and yet to eat again, though after 2 days. To stay indoors, to shut yourself in, and yet to go out again though after a week. To go out, to forget everything, to greet people, to laugh, to eat, to watch TV, to play, to come back home in the evening. To feel the sadness swelling up again and… to cry again. To cry, to cry yet to sleep again though at 3 am. To sleep, to sleep and yet to wake up again though at 6 am. And this, for the rest of the day, for the rest of the week, for the rest of the month, for the rest of the year, years...
This is your exploit: to live, to live and to live, again and again, and always to live.
We are living beings and have been created to live. Don’t question why it is so. This is what we are. It might be unfair, but that is what we are. Live, though it is so hard. Live again and again and again, for that is what you are, a living being. And this will be your exploit in the world.
Another certain fact is that one day we shall all leave this world. We all are pilgrims here. We could live two hundred years on earth, yet we shall one day depart. None of us was here two hundred years ago. Where were we when the things we read in history took place? I wasn’t here during Bob Marley’s time but here I am. I was not, now I am. After a time, I won’t be. Why then hasten the departure?
No one can create life; no one can bring back to life those who have died. This miracle is great. I live though I don’t know the mysteries thereof. I am certain Someone does know the reason of my life. It cannot be purposeless. I have been given this life; it is not of my own making. I won’t lift up my hand to it take away for I don’t know the power that lies therein.
I will endure, I will bear all things, I will survive, I will live and I will be a hero. Though life had been like a burden to me, I have accomplished an exploit. I am of the category you would call heroes. What is my exploit? I have lived.
I am writing in one of those dark days.
Live though you have no work; though you have no money; though people laugh at you; though you have no one to love; though you have no husband, no wife, no child; though you still depend on your parents; though your juniors overtake you; though you have failed; though you feel so bad inside. Live still. You are a hero because you keep on living, even in the face of such shame, humiliation and bitterness. Live still.
Remember always: you are a Hero.
Live buddy, LIVE.
Written by Margaret Newmeli
16 November 2007
Modified in October 2009, February 2010
Though there are no ideals in the world, let your family be one for you. Keep on surviving for them. No matter what you might think, they are the ones who really love you. They are the only ones you’ve got in this world.
When the dark days come, the sadness and the anger overwhelm you. One thing remains on your mind: get rid of this body which produces such suffering.
Life is synonymous with happiness, joy, gladness. To be happy is not a privilege for human beings. We are actually ‘living’ when we are happy because it is the real nature of life. You can live a hundred years in this state without getting worried about the act of living. Some people are blessed with living these days. It is great grace to be always cheerful in your life.
Others are not thus. There are some people who find it hard to enjoy living. Some come into the world with a sad countenance. Some become gloomy as they grow up. Some isolate themselves, especially when they are highly sensitive to the functioning of the world around them. Some withdraw from society in rebellion to the ways of the world. Others lose their joy of living due to some sad events that come their way.
To these people, living has become a burden. The dark days are so frequent leading them to question the meaning of their existence. The bright days may be 99 but the one dark day is so dreary that you forget you had ever been happy in your life. It erases from your memory all the beauties you had ever cherished so that you are tempted to cause the irreparable damage.
I ask myself in the dark days: “How have I been able to live 26 years on earth when it is so hard to live?”
This article is for you. You who are often taken in these dark days: those days in which you feel of no importance to anybody; in which you feel guilty of the evil that happen to people; in which you think you are to blame for the negative events that occur in the world; in which you hate all people around you and feel they hate you too. For you whose dreams have been crushed, who loath your dreams that fell short of your expectations. For you whose hopes have disappointed, who have given up in your search for happiness.
I had my crisis in 1998 when I was 16. I felt to be the most evil person in the world. I numbered my sins and they were more than the sand on the shore. I was ashamed of them. I hated my family and believed they hated me too. I wanted to kill everybody and didn’t care anymore about the realisation of my dreams. Then I thought of putting an end to my miserable life.
There were about 12 of us in my family and the house was not always quiet. The building was overcrowded, the neighbourhood, full of noisy people. Yet I was a solitary being. I had no friends and rarely spoke to anyone except at school. Extremely quiet at home, I lived in my mind's eye. I imagined fantastic stories and was taken in a world of my own creation.
I was in Form Four and was certain to fail my exams. I thought my success at school was the only thing that made my family a little relieved of me. I considered that if I failed, my family would hate me completely. Apart from school, I could do nothing well. I went on nursing evil thoughts and these invaded my heart. I soon made a resolution and didn’t care about the consequences. Thus, all was set for my departure in 1998.
This is 2007. I thank God for saving my life. If I had left in 1998, I wouldn’t have seen the beauties of the year 2000. What a memorable time with my family! If I had gone earlier, I wouldn’t have known Don Moen’s and Paul Wilbur’s music, Rivers of Joy, Jerusalem Arise and Baruch Ha Ba which made me so joyful. I wouldn’t have seen the Olympic Games of 2000 and 2004 or the World Cups of ’98, ‘02 and ‘06. I wouldn’t have written songs to the Lord and known Him as He has been revealed to me these last years.
I am so grateful to God who did not allow me to take away my life in my ignorance, deceived by my thoughts. If I had left in 1998, I would have lost much and most important, would have caused tremendous suffering to my family.
I am writing for you who are passing through difficult moments right now; you who are in these dark days. You who are desperate about your situation. You who are angry with the people around you. You who feel nobody understands you. You who are undergoing a hard time and something mounts up in your mind as a solution.
Nobody Violence Nobody Suicide
Today, the dark days are even more frequent. I sometimes question God “Where is the abundant life you have come to give? All I see around is my misery. Yes, I am in Europe. I am an African in a European university. What a prestige! I have a room all for myself. I have all things I need. Everything is great materially. Thank you Lord.
“But now, say not that I am ungrateful but permit me to tell what I feel inside. I am terribly, deeply, profoundly SAD. In Cameroon I was sad and told you to bring me here for me to be happy. I promised I would do many things for you when I get here. Forgive me; I feel I can't because I hate this place. I hated Douala and today, I hate this city even more. I don’t care about good food, watching films, meeting the Dutch players, de Boer, van Nistelrooy… whom I have sought for 10 years. I don’t want to return to Douala, I don’t want to live in this place, I don’t want to go to school, I don’t care about anything. I hate this life. I don’t want to live. I don’t want to make any efforts. Set me free.”
One evening, I stood before the cross on a churchyard and wept for the pain. I felt that I was nothing, that I had nothing, that I knew nothing. All I could utter were the words of this song; I believe in the Lord, I believe in Jesus. I doubted the sincerity of my words but I trusted in my confession. I felt these nine words were all I could claim as mine in this world. This was all I had though with no faith, no works, no love.
And you will cry, cry and cry again till you are worn out. You will cry until your strength fails. You will cry so that you won’t sleep at night. You will cry all night so that you won’t wake up in the morning. You will cry so that you won’t get out of bed, so that you won’t eat.
Had I ever known living to be so difficult?
I can’t bear it. The sadness is piercing; it penetrates right into my heart. I am so sad. I can find no way out. God what is this? The solution is to get rid of this body so that the sadness may vanish. But my family, my family loves me. Do unto others what you want them to do unto you. I will not forgive if any commits such act. How could I do this to them? But why do they love me?
Look at me, see the evil in me. How can they love me who want to repay their good with evil? They did everything for me to further my studies in Europe so that I may succeed and ‘save’ them from poverty back at home. Now I don’t want to do anything in this place and I am scared of facing them. I don’t want to see their disappointment. Why do they place their hopes in me? I can't help them. I am nothing, I don’t know anything. Let them forget me and let me go to my place.
In 2003, I recounted my crisis of 1998 to one of my sisters and she was alarmed and utterd: "How could you ever think that we didn't love you?” Yet I had spent most of my childhood and teenage believing that they hated me; to the extent of considering something beyond repair.
I wrote this article after seeing a report on American soldiers who committed suicide after returning from the war in Iraq. One was 23, another was particularly handsome. I was still in my dark days yet I was grieved to see young people taking away their lives. I felt sorry for them though the day wasn’t bright for me. I had understood that the dark days, though may last for a night, for a day, a week, a month, a year, for years …, yet shall pass and the bright days shall come. As sure as the day comes after the night, so will the bright days come after the dark ones.
You who have been crushed by life, who don’t find your place anywhere in society, who see yourself on the sidelines, who feel that there is nothing again for you here on earth. You who think that all is finished for you, you who are lonely and feel nobody loves you, who have lost hope, who are desperate about your life; who are on the brink of suicide. You who are stranded in life with an impression of being caught in a trap; you didn’t ask to be here yet you are forced to bear with this hard-knock life.
Living is an exploit and we are all heroes.
I had a nightmare. I was in a church before the Blessed Sacrament. As I prayed, a horror fell on me. I heard an overwhelming voice rebuking me: “You say that you want to leave. Come now.” Fear seized me. I knew the voice had come to take me away. That was what I had asked for before I slept that night. I was afraid and started to cry saying: “No, I don’t want to go.” Then I woke up terribly frightened. I became scared of death. I rose up and prayed that I didn’t want to die anymore.
No matter how hard live has been afterwards, I had never wanted to die
Everybody’s suffering is unique in the world. Nobody can know what you are passing through. But as a companion, now passing through hard times, one who once had given credit to suicide, this message is for us. There is still hope, there is still a dream for us, we are called to do something great. We are called to be heroes.
What is your exploit?
To cry, to cry and yet to sleep again, though at 4am. What is your exploit? To sleep, to sleep and yet to wake up again though at 3pm. To fast, to fast and yet to eat again, though after 2 days. To stay indoors, to shut yourself in, and yet to go out again though after a week. To go out, to forget everything, to greet people, to laugh, to eat, to watch TV, to play, to come back home in the evening. To feel the sadness swelling up again and… to cry again. To cry, to cry yet to sleep again though at 3 am. To sleep, to sleep and yet to wake up again though at 6 am. And this, for the rest of the day, for the rest of the week, for the rest of the month, for the rest of the year, years...
This is your exploit: to live, to live and to live, again and again, and always to live.
We are living beings and have been created to live. Don’t question why it is so. This is what we are. It might be unfair, but that is what we are. Live, though it is so hard. Live again and again and again, for that is what you are, a living being. And this will be your exploit in the world.
Another certain fact is that one day we shall all leave this world. We all are pilgrims here. We could live two hundred years on earth, yet we shall one day depart. None of us was here two hundred years ago. Where were we when the things we read in history took place? I wasn’t here during Bob Marley’s time but here I am. I was not, now I am. After a time, I won’t be. Why then hasten the departure?
No one can create life; no one can bring back to life those who have died. This miracle is great. I live though I don’t know the mysteries thereof. I am certain Someone does know the reason of my life. It cannot be purposeless. I have been given this life; it is not of my own making. I won’t lift up my hand to it take away for I don’t know the power that lies therein.
I will endure, I will bear all things, I will survive, I will live and I will be a hero. Though life had been like a burden to me, I have accomplished an exploit. I am of the category you would call heroes. What is my exploit? I have lived.
I am writing in one of those dark days.
Live though you have no work; though you have no money; though people laugh at you; though you have no one to love; though you have no husband, no wife, no child; though you still depend on your parents; though your juniors overtake you; though you have failed; though you feel so bad inside. Live still. You are a hero because you keep on living, even in the face of such shame, humiliation and bitterness. Live still.
Remember always: you are a Hero.
Live buddy, LIVE.
Written by Margaret Newmeli
16 November 2007
Modified in October 2009, February 2010
Thursday, June 9, 2011
LA RAISON POUR TA VIE SUR TERRE
Il a mis l’éternité dans ton coeur
Tu as été créé pour avoir la vie éternelle
Ton destin c’est d’être couvert de la gloire de Dieu
Ton bonheur c’est de voir Dieu
Et de vivre avec Lui pour toujours
Dieu nous a crée à Son image
Mais nous ne sommes pas enfants de Dieu
Nous avons perdu ce privilège à cause de nos péchés
Adam, l’ancêtre de l’homme était fils de Dieu
Lorsqu’il pécha, il perdit ce titre
La punition de son péché était la mort
Les descendants d’Adam, que nous sommes
Ont hérité le péché et la mort
Dieu qui est amour, a tenté maintes fois
de racheter l’homme pécheur,
Mais l’exigence de la justice ne le permettait pas
Dieu ne tolère pas le péché, car Il est juste
Et la justice demande que ceux qui pèchent meurent
Car le salaire du péché c’est la mort
Comment Dieu sauvera t-il l’homme tout en restant juste ?
Puisqu’il est Dieu, il n y’a rien qu’il ne puisse faire
Dans sa sagesse insondable
Il a trouvé la solution pour sauver l’homme
tout en étant juste
Car Dieu a tant aimé le monde qu’Il lui a donné Son Fils
Enfin que quiconque croit en Lui ne périsse point
Mais qu’il ait la vie éternelle
Tu as peut-être entendu l’histoire de Jésus Christ,
ses miracles, sa mort et sa résurrection
Sache que Jésus Christ est venu pour te sauver
Il ne serait pas venu,
si tu n’avais pas besoin d’être sauvé
Ou si tu pouvais te sauver toi-même
Jésus Christ est venu sur la terre pour une mission
Accomplir l’amour et la justice de Dieu
Jésus Christ est mort à ta place,
La colère et le jugement de Dieu pour tes péchés
Sont tombés sur Lui
Jésus Christ est Fils de Dieu qui prend la nature de l’homme
Pour mourir pour l’homme afin que celui-ci
soit réconcilier a Dieu
Seul le sang de Jésus Christ est accepté par Dieu
pour le pardon des péchés de l’homme
Pour montrer que Son sacrifice sur la croix était valable
Dieu l’a ressuscité des morts
Sa résurrection prouve que Dieu justifié
ceux qui croient en Jésus Christ
Désormais, rien ne pourra te séparé de l’amour de Dieu
Jésus Christ a payé le prix fort pour toi
Par sa mort sur la croix, il a subi le châtiment de Dieu
pour tes péchés
C’est toi et moi qui devions souffrir et mourir
car la justice exige qu’on paie pour ses fautes
Et le prix a payé dans ce cas
est la mort, l’enfer, la séparation avec Dieu
Si tu reçois Jésus Christ comme ton Sauveur et Seigneur
Tu n’auras pas à subir le châtiment de tes péchés
Puisque Jésus Christ l’a subit à ta place
Lorsque tu es baptisé, tu meures avec Jésus
pour ressusciter avec Lui,
Dès cet instant, tu as la vie éternelle
La mort physique ne sera que le passage
pour entrer en plénitude dans ton héritage
Dieu aime tous les hommes
c’est pourquoi Il nous sauve tous
par la foi en Jésus Christ, Son Fils
Jésus Christ est le Sauveur du Monde
Car il n y’a aucun autre nom qui a été donné aux hommes
pour qu’ils soient sauvés, sauf le Nom de Jésus
Il n’y a pas de salut en dehors de Lui
Si tu ne reçois pas Jésus Christ dans ta vie
comme ton Sauveur et Seigneur
Il ne pourra pas te sauver
Tu ne bénéficieras pas de Son salut
Tu payeras alors le châtiment de tes pêchés toi-même
La colère de Dieu contre les pécheurs s’abattra sur toi
Que pourras-tu donné pour sauver ta vie ?
Ton argent, ton époux, tes enfants,
tes parents, tes biens, ta religion,
tes bonnes œuvres, ta bonne conscience,
ta souffrance, ta mort ?
Ils ne seront pas suffisants
Car le prix a payé pour le rachat de ton âme est lourd
Seul le sang de Jésus peut te racheter
Aucun autre sang n’est assez pur et juste devant Dieu
Jésus Christ est le sacrifice parfait
qui anéanti la colère de Dieu
Seul Jésus Christ, le Fils de Dieu, le crucifié, qui était mort,
qui est vivant, qui est glorifié, Lui seul peut te sauver
Jésus Christ seul est Fils de Dieu engendré
Pour devenir enfant de Dieu il faut être né de Dieu
Nous sommes nés des hommes
Lorsque nous recevons Jésus Christ dans notre vie,
Il nous donne la puissance de devenir enfants de Dieu
Nous sommes alors nés de nouveau, nés de Dieu
Nous devenons enfants de Dieu, Ses héritiers
Tu peux recevoir Jésus Christ par la foi
Car si tu confesses de ta bouche Le Seigneur Jésus
Et tu crois dans ton cœur que Dieu L’a ressuscité des morts,
Tu seras sauvé
Tout ce qu’il a fait à la croix, Il ne l’a pas fait pour Lui-même
Il l’a fait pour que tu vives avec Lui
dans la gloire de Son royaume
Tu ne peut imaginé ce qu’Il a préparé pour toi au ciel,
Tu seras couvert de Sa gloire Car tu Le verras tel qu’Il est
La raison de ta vie sur la terre est de recevoir Jésus Christ
Et faire en sorte que toute ta famille, tes amis, tes voisins,
tes compatriotes, ton entourage Le reçoivent aussi
pour qu’au dernier jour, nous soyons tous glorifiés
dans la présence de Dieu à jamais
Ton objectif dans la vie doit être de suivre Jésus
Jusqu’au royaume de son Père
Ta vraie place, ton foyer, ta demeure est au ciel
Là où se trouve ton Père, Celui de qui tu viens, et à qui tu vas
Lui seul t’aime car Lui seul t’a crée.
Il t’aime énormément alors Il t’a donné Jésus Christ comme
Ton Sauveur
Ne laisse pas que les vaines choses de la terre te privent
de la gloire qui t’attend au Paradis
Tu as été créé pour avoir la vie éternelle
Ton destin c’est d’être couvert de la gloire de Dieu
Ton bonheur c’est de voir Dieu
Et de vivre avec Lui pour toujours
Dieu nous a crée à Son image
Mais nous ne sommes pas enfants de Dieu
Nous avons perdu ce privilège à cause de nos péchés
Adam, l’ancêtre de l’homme était fils de Dieu
Lorsqu’il pécha, il perdit ce titre
La punition de son péché était la mort
Les descendants d’Adam, que nous sommes
Ont hérité le péché et la mort
Dieu qui est amour, a tenté maintes fois
de racheter l’homme pécheur,
Mais l’exigence de la justice ne le permettait pas
Dieu ne tolère pas le péché, car Il est juste
Et la justice demande que ceux qui pèchent meurent
Car le salaire du péché c’est la mort
Comment Dieu sauvera t-il l’homme tout en restant juste ?
Puisqu’il est Dieu, il n y’a rien qu’il ne puisse faire
Dans sa sagesse insondable
Il a trouvé la solution pour sauver l’homme
tout en étant juste
Car Dieu a tant aimé le monde qu’Il lui a donné Son Fils
Enfin que quiconque croit en Lui ne périsse point
Mais qu’il ait la vie éternelle
Tu as peut-être entendu l’histoire de Jésus Christ,
ses miracles, sa mort et sa résurrection
Sache que Jésus Christ est venu pour te sauver
Il ne serait pas venu,
si tu n’avais pas besoin d’être sauvé
Ou si tu pouvais te sauver toi-même
Jésus Christ est venu sur la terre pour une mission
Accomplir l’amour et la justice de Dieu
Jésus Christ est mort à ta place,
La colère et le jugement de Dieu pour tes péchés
Sont tombés sur Lui
Jésus Christ est Fils de Dieu qui prend la nature de l’homme
Pour mourir pour l’homme afin que celui-ci
soit réconcilier a Dieu
Seul le sang de Jésus Christ est accepté par Dieu
pour le pardon des péchés de l’homme
Pour montrer que Son sacrifice sur la croix était valable
Dieu l’a ressuscité des morts
Sa résurrection prouve que Dieu justifié
ceux qui croient en Jésus Christ
Désormais, rien ne pourra te séparé de l’amour de Dieu
Jésus Christ a payé le prix fort pour toi
Par sa mort sur la croix, il a subi le châtiment de Dieu
pour tes péchés
C’est toi et moi qui devions souffrir et mourir
car la justice exige qu’on paie pour ses fautes
Et le prix a payé dans ce cas
est la mort, l’enfer, la séparation avec Dieu
Si tu reçois Jésus Christ comme ton Sauveur et Seigneur
Tu n’auras pas à subir le châtiment de tes péchés
Puisque Jésus Christ l’a subit à ta place
Lorsque tu es baptisé, tu meures avec Jésus
pour ressusciter avec Lui,
Dès cet instant, tu as la vie éternelle
La mort physique ne sera que le passage
pour entrer en plénitude dans ton héritage
Dieu aime tous les hommes
c’est pourquoi Il nous sauve tous
par la foi en Jésus Christ, Son Fils
Jésus Christ est le Sauveur du Monde
Car il n y’a aucun autre nom qui a été donné aux hommes
pour qu’ils soient sauvés, sauf le Nom de Jésus
Il n’y a pas de salut en dehors de Lui
Si tu ne reçois pas Jésus Christ dans ta vie
comme ton Sauveur et Seigneur
Il ne pourra pas te sauver
Tu ne bénéficieras pas de Son salut
Tu payeras alors le châtiment de tes pêchés toi-même
La colère de Dieu contre les pécheurs s’abattra sur toi
Que pourras-tu donné pour sauver ta vie ?
Ton argent, ton époux, tes enfants,
tes parents, tes biens, ta religion,
tes bonnes œuvres, ta bonne conscience,
ta souffrance, ta mort ?
Ils ne seront pas suffisants
Car le prix a payé pour le rachat de ton âme est lourd
Seul le sang de Jésus peut te racheter
Aucun autre sang n’est assez pur et juste devant Dieu
Jésus Christ est le sacrifice parfait
qui anéanti la colère de Dieu
Seul Jésus Christ, le Fils de Dieu, le crucifié, qui était mort,
qui est vivant, qui est glorifié, Lui seul peut te sauver
Jésus Christ seul est Fils de Dieu engendré
Pour devenir enfant de Dieu il faut être né de Dieu
Nous sommes nés des hommes
Lorsque nous recevons Jésus Christ dans notre vie,
Il nous donne la puissance de devenir enfants de Dieu
Nous sommes alors nés de nouveau, nés de Dieu
Nous devenons enfants de Dieu, Ses héritiers
Tu peux recevoir Jésus Christ par la foi
Car si tu confesses de ta bouche Le Seigneur Jésus
Et tu crois dans ton cœur que Dieu L’a ressuscité des morts,
Tu seras sauvé
Tout ce qu’il a fait à la croix, Il ne l’a pas fait pour Lui-même
Il l’a fait pour que tu vives avec Lui
dans la gloire de Son royaume
Tu ne peut imaginé ce qu’Il a préparé pour toi au ciel,
Tu seras couvert de Sa gloire Car tu Le verras tel qu’Il est
La raison de ta vie sur la terre est de recevoir Jésus Christ
Et faire en sorte que toute ta famille, tes amis, tes voisins,
tes compatriotes, ton entourage Le reçoivent aussi
pour qu’au dernier jour, nous soyons tous glorifiés
dans la présence de Dieu à jamais
Ton objectif dans la vie doit être de suivre Jésus
Jusqu’au royaume de son Père
Ta vraie place, ton foyer, ta demeure est au ciel
Là où se trouve ton Père, Celui de qui tu viens, et à qui tu vas
Lui seul t’aime car Lui seul t’a crée.
Il t’aime énormément alors Il t’a donné Jésus Christ comme
Ton Sauveur
Ne laisse pas que les vaines choses de la terre te privent
de la gloire qui t’attend au Paradis
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